#bigdaddykin

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I recently fulfilled my dreams of turning a BJD into a Little Sister... waiting for her to get here from the faceup artist is hard...I know she won't be really alive but she's small and I'll be able to protect her... sometimes having a little bit of source is just like that I guess

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This meme looks fun so I'll be answering these questions for my more niche fictomere! Yes I know I pluralised it wrong, but this brought up more questions somehow lol

Are Big Daddies human?

Yes and no. We once were, but not any more. Even our DNA is messed up from all this ADAM business.

Are Big Daddies hostile?

If you're looking for trouble. A loner doing repairs on Rapture isn't going to care so long as you don't attack him. But can you blame us for protecting our girls when so many see the Little Sisters as prey?

Are Big Daddies evil?

Are you? If you're in Rapture and not questioning your own morality and the morality of those around you then you better start. I would say no, but some would say yes.

Are Big Daddies sentient?

Of course we are. What, just because we don't stop for a chit-chat we're not as sentient as you? I should pump you full of rivets for that.

Are Big Daddies in Bioshock Infinite?

Only if you get the DLC where it desperately tries to link itself back to being a Bioshock game. Anyway, none of that timey-wimey shit happened in my source I'll tell you that.

Are Big Daddies friendly?

We can be. And I don't mean when hypnotized either. Just ask a Little Sister, most of us are perfectly kind. Do no harm to us and we'll give no shit, it's perfectly simple.

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Another noemata I want to share...

tw child abuse

'Playtime' wasn't allowed for the Gatherers.

As much as they tried to humanise what they'd done by calling them Little Sisters and having them all dress alike they very much did not see these children as children or even human any more.

'Playtime' was verboten. Downtime was being locked in their rooms so those in charge could take stock of the days ADAM gathering.

This is something we knew was happening to them, but we couldn't exactly stop it either. We were as much under their thumb as the girls - they'd learnt to manipulate us all.

But...sometimes when I was with a little one and there was nobody around we'd find a corner and I'd draw her a hopscoth with stolen chalk and we'd use loose rivets as stones and play. I was bad at it, of course, couldn't really hop around that well, but it was fun. And she'd draw on floor and we'd wash it away when we were done.

It wasn't always possible to hide it though and I know they would beat the girl they caught - black eyes and bruises mysteriously having appeared the next time we saw each other - but I couldn't prove it or prove who and they were too scared to tell me even when I showed concern about the injuries. Didn't they know I would have dealt with it? I guess they feared further punishment more...

When Rapture went to shit we actually played a lot more. Most of the day was play followed by gathering enough ADAM to keep us both going. It's weird how it was almost better.

And of course, Tenenbaum, once she realised what she'd done became a good nurturer for them. I don't think I can ever fully forgive her, but she had a good heart and was right to trust the little ones to Jack's care.

Suchong can rot though, making them call him 'papa' and then treating them like that...I'm only sorry it wasn't me who plugged him.

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The weirdest things will cause a shift to happen sometimes.

I was carrying a rug from the supermarket to my home today and it instantly felt as if I had my suit on again and I could feel how it pulled where it was fused to me.

It was just so similar to how I would carry materials to fix the outside of Rapture's walls. As a Rosie-Type I did that a lot when I wasn't needed with a little one. The upper crust disliked seeing me do it because it spoiled their idea of a perfect flawless utopia and those they looked down upon as working class disliked that I did it because it was viewed as me 'taking jobs from real people'.

I had been a person once, because I was a Protector, just another Metal Daddy without a face or identity - I heard these comments from people I was sure I'd known as a person (long term ADAM abuse really messes with your memories though). They didn't view me as a human any more and ya know at that point I really wasn't. Nothing new there then.

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Consider - the trolley problem, but with little sisters, what would you do?

I would throw myself at the train. I'm not even kidding. The idea that I wouldn't be able to save all of them would have me acting foolish. If I can't derail the train completely before it gets to them, I wouldn't want to be alive to see any of my girls go down.

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I really mean it when I say that the Little Sisters, our Gatherers, were the only thing which made being in Rapture worth living once you'd been turned into a Big Daddy.

I have very little memory of who I was before I was one, I think I was very poor, because I'm sure I volunteered to be experimented on because it was the only way to earn money. Did I previously have a family? I don't think so.

Chronic pain was a big feature of life when you're body is your suit. At least as a Rosie-type my spine wasn't as bent as the Bouncers? A lot of my nerves, personally, ended up numbed from experimentation and ADAM abuse. The places that felt anything felt mostly pain. Nothing really 'felt good' ever again once I was fully transformed, except seeing joy shining out of those pale little faces and those eery and yet beautifully charming shining eyes. Maybe it's the conditioning speaking.

My first girl had a name that was S or C, though names became nothing after a while. I miss her. I miss them all. I miss feeling like I had a purpose, despite all my pain, I was doing something that was worth it - maintanence on Rapture, sure, a rivet here and a rivet there, but mostly protecting Them.

I still feel untold fury whenever anyone hurts a kid.

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Two songs always cause my Big Daddy 'type to shift the hardest; Somewhere Under The Sea (duh) and We'll Meet Again.

Anyway, it's VE day tomorrow so that was playing at work during an assembly explaining it to the kids and I suddenly felt this huge longing to be in Rapture, not because I miss Rapture (it was not a good place) but because I missed Her and all of Them.

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The unexpected benefit to going to Disneyland is that certain areas have the exact style which reminds me heavily of being in Rapture and where am I ever going to get that irl except there?