I've felt a little stumped for ideas, and a lot of sketches haven't inspired me enough to go beyond a "1 colour light sketch" stage for me, and I did NOT expect this sketch to progress... but it did, and I'm very glad for that. It came out looking a bit horny, but I'm not mad at that. Still very interesting to me to see how much the colours dull when black is added.
A bonus Billy bathtime I interrupted. He was waiting for me to turn on the tap for him to drink from. General life rambling below the cut.
Still looking for a job, still no luck. I'm glad to be in a position that I can take my time looking for jobs, but it doesn't make me feel much better. I had a single job interview, but I have a bad habit of saying something dumb during the interview and messing it up. Plus, I haven't been able to shake this aura of me being exhausted, which people have been picking up on.
My old job asked me to come back as a casual, but that place was stressful as hell, and I don't want to go back. My partial alopecia has recovered a bit, which is nice, but also means I need to keep my stress level low enough to consistently recover.
I'm incredibly lucky to have sought a referral to an autism assessment program that would be completely free, and that offers free(?) employment guidance for autistic individuals. Disability wage is still a thing that exists in Australia, which wouldn't even be enough to cover rent each week, so I just hope I'm not railroaded into that somehow.
I also found out that I was recommended to an autism assessment program by a psychologist as early as 2018, which makes me a bit sad that I've spent so much of my life not knowing what was "wrong" with me. I also found out that the mentioned psychologist saw my pokemon card collection as worthless, as it was directly written in the report that I "collect items of no value", which feels like an oddly brutal way of putting it lmao. I feel a little more hope for my future if I can receive support in finding the right employment for me, but I can't deny that being out of work as an adult is the most stress free I've felt my entire life.
