prompt 1 with billie where reader and her hookup but reader is lowk in love with billie and gets upset when billie leaves
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a/n: a short little something for this amazingly heart breaking request:) this is a mix of hurt/comfort and fluff i suppose. like i said just a little something! requests are still open! enjoy<3
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“you’re leaving already?”
the sound of billie rustling through the room, gathering her clothes, pulled you from your slumber. it was the same routine with her. you and billie would meet up, have a few drinks, make out at a bar, stumble to your apartment, hook up, and you’d wake up to an empty bed.
it was an endless cycle. every bone in your body screamed at you to stop seeing her, to deny her the satisfaction of slipping into your bed. you longed for more then just booty calls and drunk sex. every morning you’d wish to wake up to her laying next to you. to watch the sunlight hit her porcelain skin. to see her beautiful blue eyes blink open while she smiled back at you.
you knew she didn’t want a relationship. she made it extremely clear after your first night together. “trust me mama, it’s better this way.” her words constantly repeated in your mind. how could it be better this way when all you dreamed about was her staying? you weren’t sure when billie would leave. sometimes you’d wake up to pee and she’d still be there, only having disappeared when you’d wake up during daylight.
tonight however, she didn’t wait long before leaving her spot next to you. “shit i didn’t mean to wake you baby, go back to sleep.” the pet name made your stomach churn- not even in a good way. you pulled yourself to sit upright and rubbed the sleepiness from your eyes. “you don’t have to leave. you can stay- i can make us breakfast in the morning..”
billie could see the desperation in your eyes. it made her feel like shit, but this is the way it had to be. billie knew she’d only hurt you. “i can’t baby, you know this. maybe some other time.” her words made you scoff. though the noise had just been meant for you, billie’s ears picked it up. “cmon baby don’t be like that.” billie moved to sit at the edge of the bed once she was fully dressed. “we’ve got a good thing goin on, nothing has to change.” she leaned over to reach for your hand but you pulled away in an instant.
“am i just some object to you? another girl in your contacts who you know will always fold for you?” billie eyes widened at your words. “baby no- of course not- i just-“ you didn’t let billie finish her thought before all the feeling you had pent up inside started rolling out. “maybe whatever we have is good for you billie- but it’s not good for me. i want more then just sex. i want to be intimate with you- romantic with you. i want to hold your hand, i want to go on dates- fuck billie i just want to wake up next to you for god sake.” billie just watched you intensely as you poured out your feelings. 
“is it me? am i not enough? what’s stopping you from being with me? don’t tell me you don’t feel it too. ive seen the way you look at me. the way you call my name, the way you call me baby. tell me it’s not fake.” by the time you finally looked billie in the eyes, tears had already escaped from your own. billie almost had to look away, not knowing if she could bare to see you cry. “baby no, you’re perfect- i just..i’m not good for you- i can’t make you happy..i’m not what you want..” she attempted to stand up from the bed before your hand was clenched around her wrist.
“that isn’t your decision to make billie- let me determine what i want. because right now, all i want is you. please. just stay. we can work this out. we can try. we can talk about it and just- try. but for now i just really don’t want you to leave. i-i need you.” you watched as billie stared at you wide eyed. after processing your words her shoulders relaxed every so slightly, almost like the walls she had build around herself were crumbling down. billie carefully pulled her arm from your grip, sliding off her jeans before placing herself beneath the blanket next to you.
not once did she speak. she simply wrapped an arm around your waist, the other coming up to cradle your head and pull you closer to her chest. you laid awake for a little while, listening to billie’s heart beating in her chest. she ran her fingers through your hair in attempt to soothe you to sleep. before you passed out, you took a deep inhale before whispering a simple “i love you” into the side of her neck. it was a miracle billie even heard it.
the next morning, you woke up to feel billie’s body pressed against the back of yours. you knew it was her, the smell of her cologne and something you couldn’t quite place filled your nostrils. wiggling in her hold carefully, you managed to now face her. she looked beyond peaceful. you brushed a piece of hair from in front of her face before she let out a soft groan. her eyes blinked a few times before fully opening. it was just like you had always pictured. her laying next to you, smiling back at you as the sunlight creeped in the room.
“you stayed..”
“yeah baby, i stayed.”
