in the wake of the recent drama situations going on and my head being on many places about it. i think i finally have something proper to add and say.
i haven't been on billy hargrove tumblr for many personal reasons that made me feel discouraged. no drama in particular, beef with everyone or me experiencing abuse. my own neurodivergent non english speaking brain process everything differently to the point i remain a loner. is a complex matter but that's another story.
last year i made my original personal blog archieved and left it as many types of crap went on my life and i stopped engaging on billy tumblr/tumblr in general the same way i used to.
with that said, i tried finding a place on discord for the gaps this site left on me, main ones were billy brainrot and roleplay lol.
during this period, i was actively talking to one of the two people who have been called out ror many messy horrible things like transphobia and manipulation.
the name of that person is masha, as far as i'm understanding she's been criticized for her patterns of hostility and TERF vibes. we, along with two more friends, whom i still talk to, related on the things that made us feel discouraged on billy tumblr and it was one of the things that joined us together. it frankly saddens me to see how all of our original purposes have been overshadowed thanks to masha's toxic traits.
she was the one who introduced me to apple's server, that had a great start but sooner i'd start to feel the clique-like manipulative vibes that many people are bringing on apple's toxic traits.
while neither of them did some serious direct harm in the way they did to others, at least two of them being my friends too whom i reached privately and i apologized for not seeing the red flags sooner. i stand with them and everyone who is bringing both of them to rightful questioning and to call them out of their disgusting behaviour.
i won't associate with people that are manipulative, transphobic, narcissistic and clout chasers. i deeply regret giving them the benefit of doubt and investing my time to offer them my friendship, that i took their word above what it was truly going on behind closed doors. this is why i decided to cut ties with masha from my all my mutual lists. here's to hope they get help and heal to grow doing better in a future.
my thoughts go with all the people on this community that are talking about this.
i don't know if i'll come back to post stuff about billy, harringrove or ST related in the way i used to back in 2022, as i find out i'm safer playing in my own little sandbox while talking to whoever that genuinely is interested in me or what i have to offer.
however, my support and solidarity is with all of you 🩶