#birdiepersonal

[ineedtolearnalot]

language learning is bullhockey. what do you MEAN i can hear the difference but i can't make my mouth understand the difference between two sounds. are my ears not connected to my brain. does my brain not give the orders here. also what the fuck is going on with all these tongue diagrams they make no sense

[ineedtolearnalot]

was going to make this more complicated but i haven't done pixel art in like a year so this is what we're going with for now even if it's a bit shit. the yellow and pink are the frosting colors, i included the pentagram bun as the a, and i obviously referenced the april fool's thing.

aside from that though, i really appreciate dan and phil for being an example of love and for showing me throughout the years that marriage isn't the end all be all of relationships, that it's not the final stage, and that a love cannot be made less meaningful or profound just because marriage is or isn't in the picture. i'm actually getting married in august of this year and ironically, the april fool's prank made me emotional about my own upcoming marriage because it reminded me to lessen the pressure on myself when it comes to wedding things and such because even though i've grown up in an environment that really overemphasized marriage as a necessity, one of the most impactful couples on my view of love and queerness and life doesn't need that married label or a fancy wedding for everyone to understand how deeply they're connected. maybe this is too many thoughts for a silly baking video, but i've been watching dan and phil videos without my parents' approval since i was a kid, phil's been posting since the year i was born, my sibling is a few days younger than the first pinof, and while i never was able to access phandom culture in any tangible way as a young teen who struggled to articulate their queerness and was forcibly re-closeted over and over, watching one of their videos has always felt like coming back to a home i couldn't get to in any other way. as an adult, i almost thought it would wear off, that they wouldn't mean as much to me anymore, but we've all grown up, and it just means their content touches me in a different way. thank you for sharing, dan and phil :)

[ineedtolearnalot]

to cope with ao3 being down, currently writing instead of reading. what are y'all doing to cope and what were you hoping to read or post before y'all figured out it was down?

[ineedtolearnalot]

why am i writing a fanfic that requires math and actually doing the math instead of making shit up this is for no one

[ineedtolearnalot]

i don't really do digital art but thank the cosmos for pixel art bc even though it's taking fucking forever i have the ability to make phanart to share

[ineedtolearnalot]

how to not kill someone in your mind if they think something you love to death is mid

[ineedtolearnalot]

i think the parts of my idiolect that could get me doxxed are a weird spectrum. there's the phrase 'oh my cosmos.' there's also the entirety of my interpretation of lord of the flies.

[ineedtolearnalot]

thank you fanfic authors who put sleep reminders in the end notes, good night / morning everyone