#birthdayrant

[graceautumn]

I turned 35 two days ago.

To new beginnings 🕊️

"Let everything happen to you: beauty and terror. Just keep going. No feeling is final."  - Rainer Maria Rilke

[graceautumn]

I'm 33 today and feeling many things: Bone-deep grief that is so familiar to my body. Held by nature, the place that held me from the start. Missing celebrations yet so connected at the same time, and so clearly loved by my people. In awe of the teachings of the trees. Wondering who I'll be at 34, and 46 and 60. Eager to keep meeting myself over and over, with as much grace as I can conjure up in any given moment.

Messy. Clear. Uncertain. Knowing.

Feeling a fuller resonance with my own wisdom – a bigger trust in it.

Rooted while receiving permission to uproot when needed.

Confused. Okay with that confusion.

Lonely. Present with that loneliness.

Human. Allowing of my own rich humanity and all it consists of.

When I was just a fetus, I had two heartbeats. They told my mom the heartbeat is so strong; it has to be a twin! Sometimes I wonder if that was just because my heart was meant to hold so much, to bear witness to so much, to make room for so much, and to heal and to grow and to love so deeply, so vastly, so profoundly.

Reflection isn't always tidy or with a clear conclusion. Presence isn't always for a purpose or an outcome. Transitions don't always happen when we think they're happening. Inner shifts don't always appear obvious.

Sometimes, life – and being human – is like this. A jumble of thoughts, wonderings, feelings and parts of us that won't ever get wrapped up tightly. I have found so much freedom in allowing myself to be human – not just human in the relatable, shareable, authentic way. I mean, human in the uncontainable way we don't always know how to share – human in the way that words can't even touch, let alone be folded into an inspirational post.

Today was a words-can't-touch-this-yet kind of day. I love those days – tight in the muck of my own humanity unfolding moment to moment. I am grateful for another birthday and another year of continually returning to myself more and more fully.

[ushikogarcia]

Tomorrow I turning another year older this year has had more downs then up but I’m coming back I’m growing and learning to do more for me because you can’t count on people to be there like you are for them. You have a tendency to get burned well at least I do. So I am welcoming my next year with resistant arms but growth is a process and I am making progress 📸 @jaseminedenisephotography #jaseminedenisephotography #novababe #mixedgirl #birthdayrant #altmodel #iowamodel #inkedwomen #altwomen #blackgirlmagic #studiophotography #growth https://www.instagram.com/vixendomo/p/BwYRs9VHCuz/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=18cjp0f604k1a

[anne-infinite-dream]

Birthday rant

Birthday time again! For the 19th time again.

To be honest this year hasn’t been all rainbows and sunshine for me. Bits and pieces of those lovely (ehem) dark years still haunt me and knock me of my feet for days or weeks, I’m still struggling with finding who I am and who I want to be ever since. But, the year didn’t only bring dark things.

To begin with @aelingalathynius-fireheart , I never thought you’d have such an impact on my life but I’m glad you did and wouldn’t know what to do without my best friend.

Together with beautiful scenery, wonderful music, lots of crafting and cosplaying, countless sunsets and sunrises, shiny gemstones, witchcraft, herbs and lots of other things.

My 19th year on this beautiful planet was heaven and hell together, though I don’t look back at it as a bad year, cause you can only grow when you’re slightly uncomfortable. I’m glad to spend another year here and am ready to see what this coming year will bring.

[whoiskittymars]

Reflecting on the past 28 years. I’ve accomplished a lot on a mental level. More so than any material things I have to show for. Am I where I thought I would be? No- Far from it. Do I still wake up and strive to get to where I want to be? Everyday. Some days I feel like I can only take the smallest of a step, but I’m still moving forward. I think it’s so important for us all to remember that we are not perfect and we have to sometimes tell ourselves that it’s okay. It’s okay that we aren’t exactly where we want to be. It’s ok that we’ve made a ton of mistakes in life. It’s okay that sometimes we struggle. It’s okay that things are hard. It’s okay that we mess up. It’s part of this human experience and it’s all so beautiful when we really get to experience it. The emotions, the pain, the pleasure, setbacks, come ups, happiness, sadness. What an amazing thing it is to be able to feel. 28 years of feeling and expression, and it’s written all over my soul and my life. So unique. So rare. Such an individual. I wouldn’t trade my experience for any other. Moving forward- always. On to bigger and brighter things. The future will only be as bright as you allow it to be. <3 So love yourself & allow yourself to grow and blossom into something beautiful. We all start as a seed. #birthdayrant #todayistheday #😄 #wateryoshit

[thairapywithmandy-blog]

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rd7jZkWjnnI)

Pep Talk? Or Shit Talk? Find Out for Yourself! 

**Warning: profanity used** 

[bluequits]

Birthday thoughts

Well another year has past.. well we grow old and leave the past behind. Am okay being like this, I don't have to worry about it.. I just have to treat it like that, leave it like that because I don't need that nor deserve that. Even when I know when am wrong in my own way there's also wrong in others. I can live with that at least I don't have to worry. Hakuna Matata Hakuna Matata. I can live with the memories, lessons, promises and feelings from the past year and move on from it and make something better because I don't deserve any of this. Am just here to live, have fun and be happy even if it takes a while. Because am satisfied either way.

[edenanarchy]

Yup. It's my birthday! Idk how I'm gonna spend it tho. Roman's had a lot of seizures over the weekend & the idea of leaving him with my dad & his dad, so mom & I can go out makes me nervous. (It's not that they can't properly care for him, it's more of a "Roman's a cranky handful when he's feeling bad & I'm a clingy mom" issue) I think most moms of disabled children are considered clingy anyway lol. Maybe I'll just go out to dinner with my family or do a little fabric shopping later today. Hopefully both. Okay, rant over. *end transmission* #personal #birthdayrant