i had such a hard time with the idea of gratitude. it’s something that was just hard for me to get bc why do I have to be grateful for trash shit. like i understand not taking certain things for granted but... growing up and being told be grateful that im not going through this or be grateful your life is not like xyz like okay but im still going through some pretty fucked up shit and neglect so why do I have to be grateful for it??
It led me down a really pessimistic path and led me to have a really pessimistic and irritated outlook on my life and life in general. but i think im coming around to the idea of gratitude but in my own way separate from what family or the outside world has tried to force on me you know like the toxic positivity dumb shit all that dumb shit.
Just knowing that some days im gonna be content with my situations and other days im gonna be grateful in my own way.
