I am so sick and tired of black women being treated like we are the lowest rung of the ladder. We are seriously the most disrespected people on the planet. Whenever ONE single black female does something wrong, we are all judged by it and it becomes a “prime example” of why you shouldn’t date black women, why black women are trash, why they are disgusting, nasty, a whore, or really anything bad that you can think of. People feel the need, no, the right, to constantly dump on us. They can call us ugly, monkeys, nappy headed, ghetto, trash, stupid and whatever, for literally whatever reason. Whenever we make an opinion or an argument, we are dragged for it and called out by our appearances. Whenever we have a complaint, either valid or not, we are always complaining, always have something negative to say, always wanting to blame people for our problems, always making it a race thing, always being contradictory, and always being mad. How can we be too loud, when, whenever we try to use our voices we are being shut down, and drowned out? They will call us gehtto and ratchet and a hoe, but will commend a girl of a different race for doing the VERY EXACT SAME THINGS that would deem us hoes and rachety. I am so sick and tired of it. I am so sick and tired of people not even tolerating black women. I hate it when I hear someone say, that I prefer a latina girl over a black girl. Not that I have anything at all against my latina sisters. I know you have you own very heavy cross to bear, and more often than not, this preference is because they have some type of fantasy about you that they expect you to live up to. But to me, I have heard it all my life, and it makes me feel ugly and unattractive and unworthy of being loved. Its like damn. I can’t change who I am, and I shouldn’t want to,I should be able to be happy with being me. But I can’t. Everywhere I look, everywhere I go, black women are being treated like dirt and trash, as if we have done something to deserve it. We can’t have anything, because it becomes white washed and geared towards them, and when were are upset about it we are racist and wrong and hated for it and its just tiring. We have been through the sames struggles of a black man, if not more, and we aren’t even being invited to the table, we are still serving and having to take this abuse silently. It Hurts. It always Hurts. Some people judge the other dark-skinned black girls for wanting to have a baby with someone of a difference race so that they can have lighter skin, and hopefully look less black, which is wrong and I do see it as self-hatred. But given all the shit that black women have to but up with just for existing, I get it. I can see why someone, who’s been called a nappy headed tar baby their entire life, would crave something better for their own daughter. It doesn’t make it right, it just makes it worst that this is a thing that we have to endure and think about.