Better - st4ry3mi
You said we'd look good together,
Then said I'd find someone "better".
I wanna scream, or smile, i can't decide whether.
Whether or not to tell you i want your sweater,
That I want you in any season or weather,
Whether or not to give you this letter.
But I won't.
"We make a great pair," I utter.
The catharsis i feel when i'm around you
Is like a ticking word bomb rigged to blow, it's true.
When i think of all the things we've been through,
All the monsters we fought and the demons we slew,
Im glad i got to do it with you.
But it's not like that.
"Do you remember when," I say instead.
You refuse to take that leap,
To speak the words i know you keep,
To even let out a single peep.
You let what could be stay asleep,
Making me want to slap you something hard and deep.
To make you realize that what you seek
Is something we both want.
"You can talk to me anytime," i secretly pray.
So we keep everything unsaid,
Keep our careful glances and untaken chances a secret instead.
It feels so brittle, with exes on our heads
One look held too long and the radar goes red.
Better to leave while we're ahead.
Yet still, i hear a ticking.
"Im okay," I say
But it's a matter of time before i explode, like i always do
Until i say something hard to swallow and even harder to chew.
Something that, to us, would be new.
Something that, to others, would show we grew.
How long will it take?
But you say i deserve another,
Say youre more like a big brother,
Something akin to a wother.
But I want an iconic "thats how i met your mother"
I dont want someone new,
I want someone true.
Someone ive always knew.
You say i deserve someone "better",
Something my friends believe to be true.
But we both know "better" is just a code word for you.
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