#blacksentai

[nicasiosilang]

blacksentai replied to your post “Overall how you feeling since leaving Wisconsin?”

*hug* happy you're doing well!

(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ <3

[nicasiosilang]

Overall how you feeling since leaving Wisconsin?

THIS IS SUCH A COMPLEX QUESTION FOR ME. Aw, jeez. Right now: good. It's been a really...well, a hopefully formative time for me. I was in a pretty bad place with my mental health before I left, and not a great one physically either. I was working for that awful racist boss. But I also had found a community and friends I absolutely adore in Madison, and I feel so lucky to have them all in my life. 

Since leaving, I've quit drinking.  Again. I have three months sober now, which might not sound like a big whoop to some, but is massive for me. I don't think I've put together more than seven days totally sober since I was 13 years old.  Sobriety has been a very difficult and humbling thing for me, so far. I am 100% sure that it's not something I'd have accomplished with this much relative ease in anything other than my current, very controlled environment. So I'm grateful for that. 

My writing is growing, and I'm learning a lot. I feel like I'm starting again. Everything I write, I see the mistakes and childishness in it the moment I'm done. Not in a bad way, I just mean that I can see that I'm learning. I'm very, very lucky to have the space and time right now to let myself work this way, this much, without my usual constant terror about income. I'm poking around at different venues for writing, at self-publishing, and at fellowship applications for the future. 

I feel very footloose. I'm lonely. I feel okay. 

[ranchdevereaux]

blacksentai replied to your post:I’VE BEEN TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT I WANT AT...

Moon over my hammy or a lumberjack slam with a side of racial discrimination

does the racial discrimination come a la carte? can i substitute it for something else

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blacksentai replied to your post “I’m a bundle of nerves and anxiety today”

can you find some distraction activities?

I'm trying! I'm so anxious that I spent a good hour hanging out and talking with my mother-in-law (which you know is unusual for me). We're both on edge right now, so it was actually really nice to have someone to commiserate with. 

I think I'm going to try spending some time making a new Sim on Sims 3 and build a house and stuff. That usually keeps me occupied for a while, even when I don't end up playing the character :/

Hopefully I'll have good news today!

[lolabugge]

blacksentai replied to your post “Tomorrow is Husband’s practical skills interview at D*sn*y. He’s going...”

Sending as much positivity in your direction as I can.

Thank you!

angel-of-the-odd replied to your post “Tomorrow is Husband’s practical skills interview at D*sn*y. He’s going...”

Best of luck! Thinking of you and sending good thoughts.

Thanks!

princessspendragon replied to your post “Tomorrow is Husband’s practical skills interview at D*sn*y. He’s going...”

YO IM SENDING RLY GOOD VIBES

GRACIAS!

[ranchdevereaux]

blacksentai replied to your post: “I hate that my computer is broken and I have to be on mobile like”:

New tumblr on android let's you finally, after 10,000 years, search tags on people's blogs.

??? i have an iphone