I love your ficlet idea Miss Navy! Could I maybe get Clark Kent with a combo of these?:
🩷kthxbye!
I hope you like this, Nat!
Can't Save Everyone
Pairing: Clark Kent x Female Reader
Word Count: Over 300
Warnings: Light angst, guilt, comfort, "failed" mission
Clark hung his head as he sat on the edge of the bed, his suit discarded on the floor. He hadn’t said a word since he got home, and didn't touch the tea you made. All he did was hug you and bury his face in your neck before he went to sit alone, the evening replaying like a morbid loop in his mind.
“Clark?” you asked, taking a seat beside him.
His eyes closed when you ran your fingers through his hair. Every cell in his body was in tune to your soothing touch, which moved to his back next. “I couldn’t save them,” he whispered, the words heavy in the air. “It was my job to save them.”
He was faster than a speeding bullet, but somehow too slow tonight. Too slow to be the hero people deserved. Deep down, he knew it wasn’t his fault, that he couldn’t save everyone. It didn’t stop the guilt from weighing on his mind and heart, the voices in his head asking why he let them die.
“Why didn’t you save me?”
“You let me die.”
“It’s your fault.”
“I’m so sorry,” you whispered, wrapping your arms around him. “You tried, and that’s all we can do at the end of the day.”
He exhaled shakily. There was logic in your words. “I’m…”
“You’re so strong. A good man.” You kissed his temple. “You’re still a hero, always will be.” You kissed his cheek. “And whatever happened tonight? It wasn’t your fault.”
Your voice slowly drowned out to the guilt, relaxing in your hold as you continued to comfort him. With you beside him, with your faith in him, you reminded him that he was still a good man. That tomorrow was a new day, a chance to be a hero again.
And most important of all, you reminded him that he was human.
Love and thanks for participating in Ficlet Friday! ❤️
Drabble idea for the sb!au: Bucky enlists the help of his girl's brothers when, in the future, he decides to propose!
this is so cute oh god😭😭
The Most Important Question - sb!au
pairing: ceo!bucky x personal assistant!reader
word count: 1.4k
warnings: none really, mentions of anxiety, allusions to panic attacks, mainly fluff
a/n: i love this series so much pls send more ideas yall!!
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Dread. Horrible, frightful anxiety. Shaky hands and a heart beating too fast. A whirlwind of uncertainty spirals into what is sure to be a panic attack if left unattended.
Bucky is nervous.
He’s accomplished many things in his life, has been through hell and back, climbed - metaphorically - to the top of Mount Everest, and seen all the beauty - and pain - the world offers.
But no accomplishment, nor any obstacle, could have prepared him for this.
“Buck?”
He snaps his eyes open - not even realizing he’d closed them - and fixates his eyes in front of him. There, standing with a tilted head and confused expression, stands Ezekiel. His right hand is holding the door open while his body leans to the left in a casual, relaxed demeanor, which only seems to further Bucky’s anxiety. Why? He doesn’t know. But it does.
Maybe it’s the secret he’s been keeping, the nearly $8,500 secret currently resting in Bucky’s right pants pocket. He’s opted to wear his nicest jeans and a carefully picked out soft, but not inexpensive, cream-colored sweater. It’s a non-offensive yet homely look, just what he’s going for.
Though maybe he’s put too much thought into his outfit because Ezekiel immediately gives Bucky an inquisitive look, scanning his body as though he feels something is off.
“Not that it’s not cool to see you, but I thought you were supposed to be out of town. Is my sister with you?”
Bucky sucks in a deep breath, his heartbeat quickens, here goes nothing.
“No, she’s with some friends getting lunch, I think. And, technically no. I-I told your sister I was so I could…” Bucky trails off, clearing his throat and wetting his dry lips.
“Can I come in?”
Ezekiel, with his confused expression only deepening, nods slowly, stepping off to the side and allowing Bucky to pass through the threshold of your brother's apartment.
Things are quiet, and a little tense, when he wanders into the living room. Robbie and Lucas have made a home on the couch, laying haphazardly across it as they stare intently at The Lord of the Rings playing on the tv. Though they quickly pause it once they notice Bucky’s presence.
They glance between him and Ezekiel, now standing behind him.
“Hey guys, um. I wanted to… talk to you about something.”
Bucky shuffles nervously, hands clasping together in front of him as he sits precariously in one of the lounge chairs.
All three boys pass a confused, concerned look each others way before setting their gazes on the man’s semi-hunched form.
Everything is once again quiet, tense beyond belief as Bucky struggles to find the right words.
“Look, Bucky, just spit i-“
“I want to marry your sister.”
The atmosphere shifts dramatically, and Bucky’s breathing has stopped almost entirely as your brothers turn to each other once more. A silent conversation passes between them, Bucky’s shaking hand reaching into his pants and pulling it out - a small, black, velvet box. Facing the box towards him, he opens it carefully, showcasing a little less than a dozen simple diamonds forming beautifully intricate patterns around a golden band.
“I love her,” He starts, glancing down at the ring and then lifting his head, gazing at the three boys in front of him - all with blank, neutral expressions.
“And I know that I hurt her, and you still might not fully trust me - and while I know that it was a couple of years ago, I also know how protective you guys are. But, she’s my everything. She’s the love of my life, and while I want nothing more than to be with her even into the afterlife, I know that your opinion is important.”
Bucky pauses, sucking in a few breaths in an attempt to even out his tone.
“As much as she denies it, your judgment, whether good or bad, influences her decisions, big or insignificant. And I know she loves me, but honestly, I… I don’t know if she’d say yes if you didn’t approve of it. I don’t even know if I’d actually ask if you guys would say no.”
Another pause. Another deep breath. His eyelids blink rapidly to prevent the tears that so desperately want to fall down his flushed face at the admission. Because it’s true, he loves you with everything he has. But this is the make-or-break moment, what they have to say is basically determining the rest of Bucky’s life.
“So,” Robbie starts, a little uncertain after a long minute of silence so thick you could slice through it with a blade. “Our opinion is important to you?”
It’s almost as if he’s testing Bucky, guiding him into some sort of trap. But, again, Bucky’s faced hairier situations than this, so he nods resolutely as his eyes travel between the three boys - now all sitting on the couches.
“Yes, it is.”
“Just to clarify,” Lucas glances at Ezekiel and Robbie quickly to gauge their reactions, then clears his throat. “You wouldn’t ask her to marry you if we don’t want you to?”
Again Bucky nods, rubbing one clammy hand over his jean-covered thigh as he mentally forces himself to push the ever growing anxiety to the side so he can get through this conversation.
But then, Robbie throws another question at him, one that Bucky hadn’t actually expected - and he’s gone through what must have been a hundred different fake scenarios to prepare for anything they might throw his way. But this? It catches him off guard, makes his heart constrict in his chest.
“Would you break up with her?”
Bucky has to physically stop the shudder that wants to run through his body. He hasn’t actually planned for the event that they actually would say no. It’s evident by the way he flounders, clearing his throat twice while furrowing his brow as he thinks over what to say.
Would he?
His immediate answer is ‘no’. Of course he wouldn’t break up with you, he loves you too much to let you go. But, then again, if they say no then that says so much about how they feel about him and your relationship. And, truthfully? Bucky doesn’t know if he could live knowing that they don’t want you two to be together in the way Bucky so desperately wants. He doesn’t know how he could go on with having you so close, yet so far.
“Um…”
“Robbie stop.”
Ezekiel’s voice cuts Bucky off, everyone in the room turning to look at his clear exasperation, accompanied with an eye roll.
“Listen, Bucky,” Ezekiel continues. “You’re a good man, a great one, in fact. And… we’ll be honest here and say that what you did is still in the backs of our minds. But…”
He pauses, adding tension to the air, before finally offering Bucky a sly smile.
“I mean it, you’re a good man. And I know - we know - that you love her, and that there probably won’t be anyone else that’ll love her like you do. And, yeah, you’ll have arguments and petty fights, but, if you can promise us, here and now, that you won’t ever hurt her like that again, then I say ‘yes’.”
Bucky’s heart leaps, nearly out of his chest. And he’s surprised he doesn’t get whiplash from how fast he nods.
“I won’t. I swear it upon everything I have, and everything I am.”
Then, Robbie sighs, nodding resolutely. Lucas does the same, offering Bucky a smile as he chimes in with “I say ‘yes’ too, then.”
And now Bucky wants to cry, but this time for a different reason. Because he’s going to ask you to marry him. Your brothers approve of him marrying you. Holy shit, he’s going to ask you to marry him. But he can’t even freak out over that right now, because the way your brothers are looking at him with fond, amused smiles, make him nearly certain you’ll say yes.
“Thank you,” Bucky croaks, voice thick with emotion. “I-I meant it, thank you guys so much. You have no idea what this means to me.”
Someone chuckles, Bucky’s not too sure who. But that doesn’t matter. The only thing that matters is that you’re going to spend the rest of your life with him, and his with you.
“I do have one question, though.”
Your brothers stare at him expectantly, Bucky evening out his breath carefully.
“Can you help me figure out how the hell I’m going to do this?”
With the news Prince Harry & Megan won’t be using the HRH titles once they stay back, I’m genuinely curious as to what that means tiara-wise for Megan.
After the first statement there was still some ambiguity about what there future roles would look like but now I think we can safely say that they won’t be attending any state banquets. That doesn’t mean that Meghan will never wear a tiara again. I fully expect her to wear a tiara to Charles’ coronation because everyone wears a tiara at coronations.
It’s also important to remember that the tiaras in the British Royal Family are privately owned so the Queen and later Prince Charles can loan them out to anyone as they see fit. I’m pretty certain that they won’t loan out any jewelry to the Sussexes now (except for the coronation) because of the way it would look to the public but theoretically they could still loan out whatever they wanted.
Personally, I’m quite disappointed because I was really looking forward to the Duchess of Sussex’s future tiara appearances and I had such high hopes of her pulling out some of the Art Deco jewelry that’s been stuck in the vaults and giving it new life.
And now, please help me welcome @blackwidownat2814 to the CSSNS!
I am sooo thrilled to welcome Natasha to the event this year!!! Everyone go say hi!
Tumblr Name
@blackwidownat2814
How long have you been in the CS/OUAT fandom?
2014-ish
When did you start shipping Captain Swan?
2014
What drew you to this event?
I’d love to be a part & I thought beta-ing would be best.
Who/what have you beta'd before, or is this your first time? Feel free to give as much info as you like.
I’ve only beta’d once before and it was an awesome one shot about Emma joining the circus and being a Big Cat tamer to three brothers ;)
What are you looking forward to most about participating in this event?
Helping an author put out the best story possible!
Oh I LOVED Le Cirque Noir!!!! And I know that Natasha’s partnership with @whimsicallyenchantedrose, dropping in August, will produce an equally wonderful story!! Everyone go say hi and welcome her to the event!
Miss Navy! I was trying to think of injuries to get Bucky to see us back at the hospital again, but I have an even better idea!
What if…we’re in that 14 month period of time, and the team is establishing themselves and setting up the tower, okay? One of the things they need to do is they need to hire medical staff. Bob, being the lovely gentleman that he is, suggests everyone’s (Bucky’s) favorite nurse, us!
Thoughts??
Hello, Nat! I hope the day is treating you well. ❤️
@mumbles411 and I were actually talking about this and how if Tony was there, he'd triple your salary so you could leave the hospital. But who's to say this group couldn't pay you more? Bucky would sure as hell be happy having you around, and you're good at your job so it isn't like the team needs convincing.
Also love Bob being the sweetheart to suggest it. ❤️
