#blamed me

[juvenileridge]

hehe not again

[nicki-k]

I wanna text u so bad. But I know you’ll ignore or block me again. Don’t come at me saying I don’t talk to u or that i don’t try… I’ve always tried; I still try. U gave up without trying, u say I didn’t put in effort, I know what I did or didn’t do & I made changes so that won’t ever happen again, but u should look in a mirror & face the fact that u didn’t do shit either & u knew I needed a lil’ push. I want nothing more than to be talking to u, I love talking to u, even if it’s about random shit or nothing at all. I want u in my life even if all we ever do is just talk; ur the only person I’m terrified to completely lose out of my life… I’ll always be here wanting u & only u; if u ever decide to give me a real fighting chance; I’ll be here to show u with proof of actions that I made changes… if u want we could just completely start over, reintroduce ourselves to each other and start fresh, following our words with actions and proving everything I’ve ever said. I want to grow with u, watch u/help u succeed & reach ur dreams & goals in life, and give u everything u want & deserve in life. I want you to feel safe & comfortable to open up to me; tell me how you feel, I won’t ever twist your words. I want to learn all about you.

[baebxx-blog]

just in case you were wondering

between the last time i was on and now, i told my dad the truth about my depression

[xxxvi-xvii]

My mom practically blamed me for some of her sleeping pills to be gone. Apparently a bottle that has 200 pills, only have 70 or so. If I took them, you really think I would be alive right now? Thanks mom. Appreciated.