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[hersheymom]

I entertain you for a while.

Dipped my toes into the shallow.

Tested and tempted

The waters before me.

Entertaining and enticing

With clever words.

Keeping enough between the lines.

I entertained you for a while

With each reply I allowed you in.

Bringing insecurities, unsettled

Sensations of the flesh.

With each evaded question

My mind allowed the addictions

Of my past to creep between

The shadows.

Where I allow the darkness

To push away the light.

In a sudden moment of panic

Deeply rooted within.

Shaking and stirring

Creating fleshing panic

Wars within the core of my identity.

Heavy with guilt and shame

Crushing me.

But not without the way through.

A light peeking through the shadows

Hearing my tears

And cries of my soul.

I entertained you for a while

Destroying my peace and drowning me.

I entertained you for a while,

But fallen in my knees I could no longer carry

The weight I have placed on myself.

3/10/19

[authorveetownsend]

To all those that are hurting today...... Know that you're loved..... Breathe By: Vee Townsend Breathe, just breathe when the pain is too much you don't know who to trust be still and just breathe. Breathe, just breathe when it all falls apart and it shatters your heart let it all go and just breathe. Breathe, just breathe when the tears start to fall and your faith hits the wall quiet the fear and just breathe. Breathe, just breathe though the doubts fall like rain take it slow, it'll change give it time and just breathe. *ENJOY THE JOURNEY* Copyright©Vee Townsend/Bleeding On Paper/I Bleed On Paper 2017® *No part of this poem and/or blog may be used or reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any way or form by any means electronic, mechanical, recording or otherwise without the written permission of the author. *I retain all rights to my work regardless* #veetownsend #bleedingonpaper https://m.facebook.com/ibleedonpaper https://authorveetownsend.tumblr.com

[authorveetownsend]

Had a massive panic attack tonight. I haven't had one in a really long time! I let alot of stuff get to me, and didn't listen to Terry and ignored the warning signs. It was eye opening experience. Terry hung in there and helped me through it and I'll forever be grateful! I also realized that it says have to happen. I put Terry and I through that because I was too stubborn to listen.... I'm fine and I want you to know that. But another lesson learned on this journey... 😖 NEVER BE TOO PROUD OR STUBBORN TO LISTEN TO YOUR INSTINCTS AND THOSE THAT LOVE YOU 😖 *ENJOY THE JOURNEY* Copyright©Vee Townsend/Bleeding On Paper/I Bleed On Paper 2017® *No part of this poem and/or blog may be used or reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any way or form by any means electronic, mechanical, recording or otherwise without the written permission of the author. *I retain all rights to my work regardless* #veetownsend #bleedingonpaper https://m.facebook.com/ibleedonpaper https://authorveetownsend.tumblr.com

[authorveetownsend]

To all those that are hurting today...... Know that you're loved..... Breathe By: Vee Townsend Breathe, just breathe when the pain is too much you don't know who to trust be still and just breathe. Breathe, just breathe when it all falls apart and it shatters your heart let it all go and just breathe. Breathe, just breathe when the tears start to fall and your faith hits the wall quiet the fear and just breathe. Breathe, just breathe though the doubts fall like rain take it slow, it'll change give it time and just breathe. *ENJOY THE JOURNEY* Copyright©Vee Townsend/Bleeding On Paper/I Bleed On Paper 2017® *No part of this poem and/or blog may be used or reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any way or form by any means electronic, mechanical, recording or otherwise without the written permission of the author. *I retain all rights to my work regardless* #veetownsend #bleedingonpaper https://m.facebook.com/ibleedonpaper https://authorveetownsend.tumblr.com

[authorveetownsend]

My Worst Enemy By: Vee Townsend My enemy despises me way too harsh, always critical quick to judge unwilling to be any other way My enemy only see's the ugliness can't see past the imperfections won't recognize the beauty can't acknowledge the good My enemy finds faults easily the scars, the weakness in me too scared to be brave too fat, no talents Year after year I struggled daily fought so damn hard only to realize one simple truth ......My enemy is ME!!! *ENJOY THE JOURNEY Copyright©Vee Townsend/Bleeding On Paper 2015® *No part of this poem and/or blog may be used or reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any way or form by any means electronic, mechanical, recording or otherwise without the written permission of the author. *I retain all rights to my work regardless* #veetownsend #bleedingonpaper https://m.facebook.com/ibleedonpaper

[authorveetownsend]

Twilight By: Vee Townsend Evening falls and the world quiets the sounds of the night sooth me as the moon rises high I'm alone with my thoughts I'm comforted by them fear no longer strangles me the breeze caresses my skin peace enfolds me in its embrace Smiling as the ink stains the page I listen to the crickets and frogs they sing love songs to the night I revel in their joy The beauty of this place astounds me I marvel at its simplicity finished, I lay down my pen and step boldly into the twilight *ENJOY THE JOURNEY Copyright©Vee Townsend/Bleeding On Paper 2015® *No part of this poem and/or blog may be used or reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any way or form by any means electronic, mechanical, recording or otherwise without the written permission of the author. *I retain all rights to my work regardless* #veetownsend #bleedingonpaper https://m.facebook.com/ibleedonpaper

[authorveetownsend]

Phyxius (Putting to Flight) By: Vee Townsend Didn't sleep mind unsettled too many thoughts not enough rest A new days dawns blank page calls purple ink bleeds peace once more is found Hope rises with the Sun lines filling empty spaces strength gathers, wings unfurl renewed, Phyxius takes flight Words bring the needed freedom darkness no longer holds her captive the terrors of the night are vanquished surrendering to the light. *ENJOY THE JOURNEY Copyright©Vee Townsend/Bleeding On Paper 2015® *No part of this poem and/or blog may be used or reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any way or form by any means electronic, mechanical, recording or otherwise without the written permission of the author. *I retain all rights to my work regardless* #veetownsend #bleedingonpaper https://m.facebook.com/ibleedonpaper

[authorveetownsend]

Wake up Call By: Vee Townsend The sun is up coffee's brewing time to get up A new day beckons Long slow stretches tiny grumbles no words are spoken we're not yet human Load the washer feed the dog she greets me with kisses I can't help but smile "Good morning, Sweetheart" as you head for the kitchen you're as bad as me and it doesn't get better than this! .......Good morning world! *ENJOY THE JOURNEY Copyright©Vee Townsend/Bleeding On Paper 2015® *No part of this poem and/or blog may be used or reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any way or form by any means electronic, mechanical, recording or otherwise without the written permission of the author. *I retain all rights to my work regardless* #veetownsend #bleedingonpaper https://m.facebook.com/ibleedonpaper