What pissed you off today Mel?
Nothing.
I can handle Christmas carols this year.
My attitude has changed so much, I barely rant anymore.
My boss is finding me work with her friends.
Things don't piss me off to the point where I want to hit things.
I can afford Christmas presents for my kid this year.
The only time I cry is when I think about how grateful I am that things finally stopped sucking. I get teary eyed.
Like just now I thought about how I can afford Christmas presents for my baby and I'm fucking bawling.
And I don't think I ever told you guys my Christmas miracle...
My landlord gave us the month off of rent for December. Something I was wishing for on every first star and soaring crow... A break, or some help, in whatever form. He said God told him if he was a Christian, then to do something for Christ for his birthday. And he did. He also sent workmen by to patch the house (its falling apart) and paint it. No procrastination. It was done last week.
I may have had moments where I thought I lost my faith, but it always came back around. And though we don't believe in the same God, I think the key thing is to believe in something. Merry Christmas all. And God/Goddess bless us, every one.