Death, grief, loss Blog 1
Have you ever wondered how long could you live?
My death, grief, and loss class did a little assessment about estimating how long are we going to live. It was a bit crazy to know for me to know I am going to live only till “88 years old”. In addition, it is also scary to know I will be a 22-year-old tomorrow; I had already lived 25% of my life already! Pretty nuts! Afterward, my professor, Dr. Christine told us to write about important events that happened or will happen in our lives in our timeline. As you can see, my timeline wasn't that long compared to some of my fellow classmates. I think some of the reasons are because I do not really exercise at all outside of my PE course. I made me feel guilty that I often find reasons to not do that, for example: busy school schedule and lack of energy. I hope after my years in school, exercise would come easier or I just needed to participate in a group sport to force myself to work out (because I am a 9-peacemaker and that was one of the things that keep us motivated).
Back to the important events, I wrote about coming to America in 2010, my graduations: high schools (2014), college (2018, almost there), and incoming grad (2019, hopefully). Otherwise, I wrote a big unknown in the middle of the timeline until death. Throughout my walk with God, I realized could never plan my future all out. It keeps me humble to know that I am not in charge, there are always some surprising and interesting elements. But, it does not mean I do not worry about 401k, my family, future family members, and friends. It is a daily process of letting go. It also reminded me of how short our lives are and how fast time flies. One thing I hope is when I am at my old age, I can still be positive and kind and live without regrets.
