#bloo vent

[blu-cosmos]

they make me want to throw up

I figured out that listening to "glowing snow" at any time of day just makes me depressed, but god I love it anyway....

[bloo-star-sinner]

Valid

 I hate the word “Valid”. I want to vent a sec about this. Egg culture in the trans community, useless, utterly useless, throw it out into the trash. Egg culture is trash and that’s it, its fucking dumb and always has been. Valid is a word way to often in trans spaces, sometimes you *arent* valid, sometimes you don’t pass and it doesn’t help anyone to tell them they do, or have people hug box you into accepting your “uwu male body because you’re male so any way you present is male now” Thats not how it works or i wouldn’t be dysphoric about my FEMALE body and GENITALIA, and BOOBS. These things aren’t *male*, they are female sex characteristics. Its so much worse to tell someone they pass or “ohh girl your makeup is bomb!” When in fact its messy and the dark and the only thing on their face. Just because someone is trans, doesn’t mean they need to be hug boxed and “validated” Sometimes people need a kick in the ass to help them, and when i say kick in the ass, i mean ADVICE. Like “Girl, you should ass eye shadow and some eyeliner, you’d look sooo good.” Or even a fuckin “My dude, you’re hair is nice, but i think it looked better like this” Or something.  Back to egg culture, i’ve been immersed in it to just see how the ‘other half’ handle it and holy FUCK, not everyone is trans just because they *feel* like they are, validating “trans” feelings doesn’t help, facts and advice do. Sometimes a feeling is just a feeling, a passing feeling that doesn’t mean anything. Sometimes a kink is a kink and nothing more, don’t encourage people to transition or come out as trans if they aren’t sure, don’t coddle them because if they ‘become transgender’ the world isn’t going to treat them with open accepting arms like egg hatchers do. Thats not to say all people who come seeking advice aren’t trans, but the majority are just kids who want to be accepted and this isn’t the way to do it.  Questioning people need real hard truth, advice, and suggestions to talk to people irl who might help. Real Life Experience is important and “validating” people online isn’t good for the mental health of people just wanting to be accepted. I hate the word Valid, as if i dont already know i’m valid. I know who i am, i don’t want to be coddled and told i look like a man when i don’t, i don’t want to be asked my pronouns and orientation because of “uwu acceptance” if i don’t pass, i want to be told, or more likely, i already know i don’t so don’t remind me, give me advice. Do Not “Validate” Me, or my “twans male body uwu” I don’t need you to tell me im a man, i know i am, I just have a female body. 

[blu-cosmos]

Who better 2 project my feelings onto than leo huh? (By a non leo kinnie)

Omg this looks like arse holes LMFAO

Imagine this is rise!Leo post movie 😍

I hate this fandom (affectionate)

[blu-cosmos]

Venting moment, imposter is sus tuntuntuntuntuntun tun tun tununun

I am not funny, anyways

Feeling down in the dumps, had some self reflection while doing this and I am... Feeling, Yes

I didn't want it to only be about m/- mikey's problems to I tried to lift up the mood a bit at the end, hope it worked.

Translation here if you can't understand <3

First:

"I want to be happy all the time, or normal at least, to feel normal"

"but I can't and I'm sorry"

Second:

"I go full on hermit mode whenever I do just to fix myself so that no one will be too bothered with me being mopey"

"and sometimes I wonder if they notice. Do they ever do?"

Third:

"I'm known as the 'funny one' or the 'laid-back one'

And I love that I am. It feels good to know that I lift people up."

"But... It always comes at a price of people not taking you seriously.

And... That really sucks."

Fourth

"And I know they mean well, I really do

I love them all to bits"

"But they can be too much sometimes.

I hate myself for that, I hate myself for not opening up. It's hard to open up when you've bottled it up for... awhile."

Fifth:

"I'm tired of myself..."

"I really... dislike myself"

Sixth:

"But, sometimes you remember that it's ok to feel this way, it's normal."

"You just have to remember to take care of yourself. Take it easy. Gather yourself and talk to the people you love. Let it all out."

Seventh:

"But if you can't that's ok too, I'll be here with you until you can."

"I know you can."

love ya'll pls take care of yo selves because if you don't I will break in to where you live and force you to.

[blu-cosmos]

This was long overdue lmao

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They/them ∑d(°∀°d)

(Say hellaur 2 littol putzy)

Hellaur, call me blu or bloo (๑˘︶˘๑)

I don't really want to do a fandom list because I am in a lot and I drift through them a lot but just know Undertale will be a constant in my life, very near and dear to my heart (´｡• ω •｡`) ♡

then again you'll probably know what I'm in through my posts lmao

I'm so messy it reflects my blog so here are my tags

#bloo art

#bloo vent

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[blu-cosmos]

The external storage that has all of my drawings + other data that I deem important is dead I am so devastated I am numb,

Last drawing I saved on there was the ichimatsu one, currently breaking down.

This isnt the first time something of this caliber has happened but oh my god it never gets better.