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@diamonddaze01 i've been pondering more on the last chapter and i keep getting stuck on it cuz EUGH 😭 i didn't break it down enough. like it's occurring to me, that minghao low-key finessing the seokyn marriage was like,, the last thing he would ever do for her as her like "caregiver" before she's handed off to another man and leaves her family home. and it's like messed up that this is what thinks will make her happy bc she loves seok and not hannie, BUT IT'S NOT!! her agency has been ripped away from her, and it doesn't matter that she loves seok and not hannie—she was going to be okay, but he DIDN'T KNOW THAT HHHHHH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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something that i learned from deactivating my writing acct is that readers here r like a toxic boyfriend: they'll only love you if you say that you're leaving. cuz truly like... yeah ur gonna mourn the loss of yet another "brilliant" writer, but you don't change your behavior in order to prevent it.

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telling that the moment i start a draft knowing it's only for me, i give the mc an actual name, and the only reason i still write in 2nd pov is cuz it's just habit 😭

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hush by the boyz 🫂 kiss me if u can by the boyz 🫂 levitating by the boyz 🫂 she's the boss by the boyz 🫂 unbreakable sign by the boyz 🫂 diamond life by the boyz 🫂

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had so many things i wanted to write before the end of the year, like a whole schedule and stuff, but that never happened 😭 </3 man. what i would give to have more energy these days

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been dead all week (and it's still not the end 😭) but i found this joong pic on pinterest and it brought me back to life somewhat @@

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ive been so focused on the plot that i've forgotten that this is also a romance 😐

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getting uber giddy abt writing a line u think hits really hard,, like no u really cannot find crack like this