"It seems that my weight was, for many, the physical symptom of a lack of virtue as well as a clear and present danger to my health. [..] Buried not too far beneath the surface of “Your wife must love the new you!” is the suggestion that she must not have liked the old you very much. This is also true with the much more anodyne “You look great!” compliments that are showered on any person who sheds enough weight to look visibly changed. These often carry another, darker implication, along the lines of “Congratulations on no longer failing as a human being” or, indeed, “Welcome back to humanity!” [..] Acknowledging that my physical appearance mattered and accepting norms, instead of fighting them, had been part of the process all along. [..] How different it feels to be in a world that celebrates your physical presence as healthy and desirable—and, indeed, is designed for bodies roughly your own size. Clothes fit me properly and flatter my figure. I can sit on the bus without squeezing against other commuters. Strangers open themselves to me with smiles and nods, inviting interaction and evidently enjoying it. The pleasure is mutual. But there was also something attractive and deeply pleasurable about being—and living—large, about cultivating huge appetites and satisfying them with abandon. Eating piles of calorie rich food and guzzling it down with wine is tremendously fun, and I look back on occasions when I did that with fondness, a hint of jealousy, and with only the slightest regret. And my large body was so powerful! [..] Removing over thirty percent of my total body mass has entailed losses of pleasures that I once associated with being huge and that remain important for me. These are more than just the pleasures of regular excess in food and drink. I am physically smaller now and less strong than I once was. I may never gain back all of my old strength. [..] Loving my body the way it was, despite the stigma attached to its size, was one of the ways that I wanted to be revolutionary. [..] as with so many other things in life, what at first looked like a narrowing of experience turned out to be its enrichment. Dieting and exercise are practices of ascesis, of discipline and denial, and it is perhaps as acts of refusal—of food, of rest—that they have become associated with virtue.