the universe is cruel for giving me lupus (and therefore joint pain) when i love drawing so much :(

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the universe is cruel for giving me lupus (and therefore joint pain) when i love drawing so much :(
That feeling when you finally enter your 20's and all your, once well oiled, joints just stop.
I think I have a fracture in my foot. I have intermittent pain that mostly happens when I drive (pressing the pedal down with the toe of my foot) and after I walk a lot and finally sit down. It gets worse the more I do aggravating activities, but I don’t want to go to the doctor because my insurance doesn’t cover imaging. It also feel worse when I wear my steel toe shoes, which is ironic because wearing those is supposed to prevent foot injuries.
I did try self treating, staying off of it for a few days, icing it, and wrapping it, and it got better, but the pain came back and I honestly think it’s a bit worse. And no there was no onset event that possibly broke it that I can remember. The pain is lesser enough I can ignore it a lot, but it is getting nagging.
What can I do?
Why must my limbs hate me. They want me dead. They may succeed if they keep feeling as if they’re tightening around my bones and trying to squeeze them into breaking. Owie.
oug the consequences of my own actions
“i’ll play tf2 for like an hour then head go bed after” <- clueless
oof ouch my bones - phoenix (he/they/it/ember/ash/fire/flame/burn/heat)
Oof ouch my bones
*Anything happens to cause me a slight amount of pain*
Me: My entire skeletal system is in disarray. I will now die.