#bound ashril

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SO EXCITED ABOUT ASH AND MARCEL LORE? MY BLORBOS THEY’RE BACK!

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Do you think about how silly (messed up) it would be if Draeke was able to watch over Castrel and Ash?

He would have to watch two of the people he was closest with (maybe not at the end, but he names his child after Ash. That counts for something I think.) playing cat and mouse for the years after his death, trapped in similar cycles of grief and pain.

Would he be angry? Would he be sad? Would he be vengeful? (Though I doubt he would)

Do you think Draeke watches his sibling as they mourn him? As she holds on to so much grief and fear and so so so much regret. Watching as Ash tries goes to scrub the blood off of their hands- repeating the same motions after nightmares or certain days when it rains (though those times the blood isn’t there- they see it. They sees it every day after it happened. He can’t *stop seeing it*.)

Do you think Draeke watches his husband -the person he spent so much of his time with. The kind, loving, important, wonderful person he fell in love with- chase and chase (and *hunt* and *track*) and chase Ash down, overwhelmed with grief and so *so* much anger. But in the process watching him leave the child he is hunting Ashril down to protect in a way? (It feels so much to me like a dad who’s off at work all the time. Maybe one who travels for work, who’s not home often so you give him things to take with him so you know he thinks of you. That’s what the letter feels like in my bones.)

Yeah no me neither.

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Lil more Ashril and Draeke thoughts.

Uhhh TW for short description of blood and death??? It’s like 3 sentences in particular Im looking at but Idk.

I’ve probably written like this before without the TW but take it anyways be safe take care of yourselves, all the things :]

Did Ashril run immediately or do you think they held Draeke as he died? Do you think they talked to him, apologized, held off their panic to give him a peaceful death? Do you think they told him they loved him one last time? Do you think they held his body tightly for just a moment after before running? Do you think they left him with a flower- a white tulip- one gripped in cold, limp hands?

Or- do you think they ran right after? Leaving his brother to die alone? Do you think it’s one of their biggest regrets, never staying in his final moments? Never saying goodbye? Never telling him she loved him? Too caught up in what they’d done, the lingering blood on their hands and left him to die alone in the freezing rain. His body and blood soaking into the ground for his husband to find later with the weapon they’d used laying bloody barely in reach of his hands? Or was his body never found, maybe ash went to him with Draeke’s blood on her hands and he snapped- forcing them out and *away* and far from the family that they will never again (even if they weren’t close- that just makes it so so much worse doesn’t it?)

I dunno. Thoughts, I’m having them.

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IM SO NORMAL. EXTREMELY. THATS MY BLORBOS. SCREAMING NOISES.

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I’m being so normal about ash guys. So normal. I promise chat.

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Sherb and Ven looked at wet birds sad and went- nah let them be gay. And here Ash and Marcel are /j/silly

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Yes I said “give me a few minutes” but now I’m sitting here a 2 hours later with additions to my Pinterest board, playlist, and two new fic ideas started so here we are.

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I have many things to yell about so many thoughts are happening give me a few minutes