#bowmansdaughter

[gonowandspeedwell]

SPIT IT OUT!

"I killed your mother."

[gonowandspeedwell]

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Send me a ?? for a thought my character has had about yours that they’d never admit.

She reminds me so much of her mother. It hurts to look at her.

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Little Liar Tilda - {Battle of five armies}

So I wrote this little drabble, then I thought it does not sound like an eight year old girl speaking, but I didn't want to delete it and I had no clue how to make it sound more like Tilda. So here, have it anyway while I ponder on how to change it. (Feedback would be much appreciated :D) Some things referenced in here (like the slingshot or Tilda speaking to Fili) happened in threads, not in canon.

Sigrid is still standing there, I can see her from where I'm sitting, lonely and sad. It is getting darker and colder with any minute and no matter how much I try, no matter how much I cling to the blanket around me, I will not feel warm. Not tonight, for the cold comes from somewhere deep inside my heart.

I do not understand why this is happening, I do not understand why they had to leave us behind, why they had to go. And I do not understand why Sigrid is still standing there. There is no reason in waiting for them, Da' said it will take some time until they return. So why is she still looking out for them? Why is she still staring into the direction they left in? It does not make any sense. But since late not much is making sense anymore anyway. It all started with these dwarves. I like them, but I found myself cursing the day I met them more than once, for everything went up in flames afterwards.

And now they are gone. Da' left, and Bain went with him, though everyone said he should stay behind. They said he was still too small and Da' wanted him to look after us. But we can look after ourselves and I can understand that Bain felt big enough to go with him. I know how it feels when everyone says you are too small to do something, I have been hearing it my whole life. And Bain said it, too.

I am so angry with him. He bought me that slingshot, he said I could defend myself with it, but now he left me behind to go off to battle with Da' and without me. How can they do that? How can they just go and leave Sigrid and me behind? Why can they not understand that we need them more than these people? What am I supposed to do if something happens to them? What am I supposed to do when I loose Da', when I loose Bain? How can I go on without them? I cannot imagine a world without them in it, and I do not want to imagine it. I still remember the sad look on Fili's face when he thought he would loose his brother, I still remember how devastated he was, so much despair filling his eyes. I do not want to feel that way, I do not want to see such despair in my sisters eyes.

Bain should never have left us. He should have stayed with us. He promised me he would always protect me! But how is he protecting me now? How is leaving me behind a protection? I do not understand, and there is no one here to ask, for I know Sigrid knows no more than I do. They left her, too. A realization that hits me out of nowhere, a thought that has not occured to me before. I am not alone, she is with me. Sigrid has not left, she never would. My sister loves me.

And so I stand up and walk into the rain, I walk to where my big sister is standing, holding onto my little doll and the slingshot my brother gave me, memories of a life we left behind, the only things I could save from the flames. I find my place beside her. There is no reason in standing here, but there is no reason in leaving her behind, too. Sigrid is the only one I have left, and I will protect her. I will be with her until the very end. And if she wants to stand outside in the rain, waiting for them to return, I will stand and wait with her. Even if they never return at all. For she is my family and my place will always be with my family. I am not like my brother, I am not like Da'. I will never leave family behind, no matter what happens.

„They will come back to us“ I say, not looking up at Sigrid. „They will return. Da' promised it, and he always holds his promises. Da' will protect him“ Little liar Tilda, the voices in my head call me, it feels terrible to say such things. Things, I do not believe in myself. But what else can I do? There is nothing left for me to do. My world has crumbled and I am lost and forlorn, for the first time in my life I really feel like the little girl I am. Just a little girl from a lake, imprisoned in a world of fire and ashes. For that is all that is left of our life, ashes and smoke. And now even my Da' is gone. Even Bain is gone.

[littlelakegirl-archive-blog]

+ bowmansdaughter

"Sigrid" Tilda whispered, it was all the little girl could do to not break down in tears. "I have to tell you something" Oh, how she hoped her big sister was not too angry with her.

Sigrid always mended Tilda's clothes and everything the little girl was wearing went through the hands of her sister first. She knew that it took the older much time and patience to keep everything clean and intact. Not an easy task if you considered how much time she and her brother Bain spent outside, running through Laketown.

However this time it had not been Tilda's fault, not in the least. "Tobi was mean to me and I wanted to --" She began explaining before sniffing loud "He tackled me and I fell, and, and --" and I ripped the pretty dress you gave me. The one mother used to wear. The one you changed for me.

[gonowandspeedwell]

He was under no delusions that the upcoming conversation was going to be an easy one. Bard toyed with the cup in his hands as he watched the door. A part of him wanted to wait a little longer before he broke the news, but procrastination never got anyone anywhere. Still..Bard sighed and took a long pull from the cup, he felt as if he would much rather face down another dragon.

[gonowandspeedwell]

bowmansdaughter replied to your post:I really wonder how Bard is going to tell his...

//Try it. I dare you…

Well..can't ever resist a good dare. So I guess I will XD

[tildaofesgaroth]

+bowmansdaughter

"Sigrid! I missed you!"Tilda said, running to hug her older sister, small hands clutching on to the older girl’s dress as if she feared she might disappear.

"Is Bain with you?"she asked hopefully.

[blacksmithofrivendell]

"I.. feel ill."

"Are you alright, Sigrid?” asked the blacksmith elf who was working in Dale for the past few months. He looked at the girl with concern as he placed his hammer down and stepped away from the forges to go to her side.