Well I have some questions about the way I function.
How come I start to obsess with a boy I really find attractive and nice as soon as he gives me somewhat attention.
Of course I've had some guys liking me with out the obsession, but they haven't been fully up to my particular standards. And I guess that I've been holding back for that superficial reason. The moment I find someone who shows interest and that I really are attracted to, I get overwhelmed and can't seem to keep my emotions intact.
I sort of freak out and want to talk about that person and speak to that guy all the time. I can't help myself from getting ahead of myself and thinking about what our future would be which is really creepy when I don't know the guy at all.
How can I be that silly and girly... this is so unlike me.
I'm almost creepily involved with my emotions towards this guy.. No I actually am. This is so weird. I want to shut it off... What if he could read my mind? Geez would he be gone in a second.
Also it makes me crazy that we don't have a normal conversation. It's like a day between texts! But he must be interested mustn't he? He does still text me back and his answers are long and nice?
Ough... I this is what I call an love-hate-relation. I love that something's happening to me in the boy area, but I hate this mind game.
