#bpd nightmare

[ineedashrinkinator]

i dreamt that i met a nerdy guy who never had gf before n he became my bf after which he immediately said "now that were in relationship i can touch u" n i sad "huh" n then we went on a bus together n then he started grabbing me outta nowhere n i was removing his hands off from me yelling at him to which he replied "if u dont want me to keep touching u ill leave" n then he left the bus next station

[ineedashrinkinator]

i dreamt there was a guy who invited me into his friend group n that made me happy but then i lost them in crowds for an hour or so n when i saw them again that same dude was surrounded by some rnd girls laughing flirting with them which made me feel like shit (i was easily replaceable after he got some confidence)

[thenativesquid]

One of my greatest regrets is not telling my best friend I loved him with all of my heart. I saw him everyday and showed it fairly well, but never vocalized it. He's no longer on this earth and it kills me every day knowing that he never heard that from me Never let a day go by without telling those, who actually matter to you, how much they mean to you. I never got to say goodbye. Life is so precious. Don't make the same mistake.

[thenativesquid]

My songs were mine.

[thenativesquid]

If someone meant anything significant to you then treat them like a human being when you decide to let them go. Don't resort to a social media message because it's completely insensitive. If you have any respect for said person and want to reassure any meaning in what was had, the responsible thing to do is to say your peace to them so that they believe it to be honest and so they may believe they were something more than a passing of time. Give them some insight so that they may move on peacefully and healthily. It's not about a rekindling but more so showing some form of respect in regards to anything you want them to actually believe to be true.

[thenativesquid]

I wish I had one answer as to why I have to go through such turbulent waves of disposal. When will it be my turn? Being broken into pieces that I don't want to pick up anymore is such a foreign feeling. I'm so tired, Used up and generally let down by how much I give and how often it goes unnoticed. I don't apply myself for the attention. I try so hard because it makes me feel present in this moment and genuinely happier. Though, nothing is as real as you want it to be. Be kind and rewind.

[thenativesquid]

You can never do right by someone who is unclear. No matter how hard you try, how much you care, you'll never be right because they don't know what they want until it happens.

[thenativesquid]

Never again will I let myself be this foolish. You once asked how I can even be around people after all I've been through. I can't.