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lowkey highkey midkey im feeling fine honestly im not spiraling anymore
And now, a Borderline-filled rant and rage session where I don't give a fuck:
What if I just screamed.
What would you all do?
You do it often enough, at the earliest hours of the day and night, and with no regard for who might be trying to sleep. But when you scream its cute and girly.
The screaming I want to do is quite ugly.
I want to scream about this fucking bitch of a teacher who has driven me to forget two doses of effexor because of my preoccupied anxious FREAKING OUT about her fucking paper that is, oh, not due at the END of next week, but at the BEGINNING. THANK YOU VERY FUCKING MUCH YOU HORRENDOUS CUNT. I am now withdrawing. I have thrown up twice already, got the shakes, chills, sweats, cramps, and I was starting to hallucinate a little before I finally got back to my room and shoved my dose (and an extra pill because who fucking cares) down my throat and psychologically tricked myself into thinking I am fine.
I was THIS close to making my friend call an ambulance for me.
And then I get back to my dorm and I want to scream again, because APPARENTLY WE ARE NOT ADULTS HERE AND WE NEVER LEARNED HOW TO FUCKING FLUSH A TOILET.
I am sorry, but FUCK YOU ALL. Even the people I like. FUCKING FUCK YOU.
I just want to be able to ONCE go into the bathroom without having to worry if there will be shit all over the toilet seat, or puke on the stall doors, or a tampon floating in the toilet.
I take care of my business, YOU FUCKING TAKE CARE OF YOURS YOU MISERABLE BITCHES.
You are skinny and pretty and cute and adorable and all sorts of other sickeningly attractive things to the guys you all like, but if I took ONE picture of that bathroom after you leave it, you could be sure that you would never have a date again in your life.
I just want to SCREAM
Scream so loud that I wake everyone up who was asleep, and so loud that I piss the fuck out of everyone who was being loud anyway.
I want to punch you in your faces and throw your shit around your rooms and call you names and cry.
But most of all I want to sleep.
But I can't.
Because I need to fix my outline, and print out my intro.
Just fuck you all.