Feb 22, 2021
god i feel embarassed to have ~feelings but! listening to sebastian murphy talk about listening to the same song over and over again for like days or weeks on end!!!!! i used to do that all the time, like from childhood, i would fall asleep with the one song i liked that day/week on repeat; but eventually people start noticing and making comments like “wow u sure like that song a lot huh” and i eventually just got shamed out of doing it, because now i’m worried people’ll hear it leaking through my headphones and have thoughts about me. it feels a little silly to put it down, that i let myself be embarrassed out of enjoying something.
#idk what my point was i'm just feeling chatty today#i should probably go to sleep since i have to go to the office in the morning but i figure i can nap when i get home too#i think my mental health is definitely going to be a little better now that i can unclench wrt my music listening habits#and like...i have something i love doing back! so it's like a little treat#sorry to ramble about bandman and or bandman adjacent shit but uh i'm way deep in the obsession right now y'all dk the half of it#i've been meaning to make more gifs but i dl'd too high quality of a video for either my dinky laptop or ps to handle so#re-dl'ing has been a bit of a roadblock. it's like the multi-step storage problem y'kno?#god i need to get back on my rp blogs so i can get all the wordvomit out i am bursting at the seams#ok goodnight....maybe#brain ref
