#brain reminder

[windydrawallday]

Me: I'm a pretty tolerant fan! I embrace all my moots & friends AUs takes about the character I enjoy a ton, because it's just a representation, and that's valid! Nothing really can't hurt my core love for the ch--

Me, too, when I learn my fav is killed in one of those settings: ... I'm fine. I'm SO fine. I can still live like a NORMAL, not at all RABID fan, sobbing in a CORNER.

*Does exactly the last bit*

In all seriousness now, thank you to @adventuretolkienlover for indirectly giving me the last piece of personal information I needed to trigger in me feelings I denied for so long about my interaction with fiction.

Sounds silly, but learning how vulnerable and raw I can feel about something even when having +20 years indulging in imaginary worlds, practically waving the flag "Fiction can't hurt you!"... here I am, eating my own words.

But happy because through it something awoke in me... and tbh I prefer it to come from someone I admire than a stranger that just drops hate for the sake of hate (that I had enough of that last one for half a decade).

Once more, silly, dummy, stupid anecdote that no one else will understand, but for me is important, and I want to save it here to keep reflecting about it for the rest of the year.

Thank you 💕🦡

PS Yes, I forgive you, Inky XD

[windydrawallday]

Reminder to myself... and whoever needs it!

[windydrawallday]

Friendly reminder that indulging in fictional villains doesn't make you a supporter of their behavior irl. And I know it can be a tad daunting to dip your toes in that territory if you never did it before. I was there, long ago! I feared so much stuff before! Until I dared to face them through fantasies. Imagination let me have the reins over those fears, bit by bit. I'm still learning to integrate all those pieces that make up my shadow. Some of them are too hard to swallow tho. But that's fine: you neither need to gulp the darkness in a sit. It is something that requires a lot of critical reading and personal reflection. And it is absolutely right to mark your limits about it, after all, that was the original purpose of fictional baddies: modern villains aren't far from the cautionary archetypes shown in folklore and fairy tales. They exist to remind us of our morality, of what could happen if we indulge too much in vices, of the impact we leave if we act in certain ways, etc. Without actually risking our well-being. When you put names and faces to the darkness, is easier to confront it… or avoid crossing your path with it if you aren't ready to do such. Is really fine! You aren't weak for choosing walking on the lighter side more than under their shadows. Remember: fictional villains will never hurt you. They are like sock puppets that need your hand to control them. Only you can decide how far you want to play their role. And if suddenly this puppet feels too itchy to the touch, just take it off. They fulfilled their purpose in that way too: you now know what vibes or not with yourself. Thanks to them.