Here's the problem:
I can't accept the idea that it doesn't matter what other people think of you, so I have to accept the idea that it's bad to be annoying.
However, because of *gestures vaguely*, I have a fairly hard time telling when I'm annoying someone if I'm not told outright, and understandably I think, people typically don't outright tell you unless you're really crossing a line; you're usually supposed to infer this from unspoken clues and hints.
Consequently I end up looking for potential clues that I'm annoying people everywhere, and often end up interpreting things that way that aren't meant to be interpreted that way.
Which is unfortunate
And the best I can do is try to get to know people well enough (or trust people enough) to know what those clues look like for them, or at a certain point to trust that I don't annoy them. Part of why people I consider good friends are so valuable to me.
But for people I don't know that well or am trying to get to know, it's significantly more difficult. On a good day I can just trust that people in general are not too judgmental and that surely I'm fine so don't worry about it, but on days where other parts of my brain are a little more active...
