#braindrugs

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also thanks for your responses friends, it’s definitely something I’m going to keep an eye on/bring up to the doc

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mutedlark replied to your post:braindrugs[[MOR] I’ve been on citalopram...

sort of, but i have bipolar and was on a couple different meds at the time, and we had rebalance everything so that coulda been plenty of stuff other than celexa too. brain chemistry can go fiddly on you though, maybe a dose change? idk

that’s another weird thing, I’ve been on the same dosage for pretty much the entire time!  idk, I’ll bring it up next time I’m at the doctor’s, I’m just terrified he’ll try to take me off it and I’ll be back to hellbrain

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braindrugs

I’ve been on citalopram (celexa) for about two years now, and although it has done a great job of suppressing my OCD symptoms, increasingly I’ve felt... mood-swingy?  like within hours of each other and prompted by the most random shit I’ll be on top of the world and then pointlessly sad with no middle ground

I think I’m usually pretty on the level, and PMS can mess with brain stuff, but I’ve started noticing this at random times throughout the month.  I wonder too if it’s seasonal depression, which would mean it’s hitting me super early this year, but weirder things have happened I guess!  I’m just not sure whether the sort of delirious thought-racey happiness vs. weepy downtrodden sadness is part of my personality or a chemical development

what this rambling paragraph is meant to do is ask if anyone else who takes/has taken citalopram has noticed their emotions becoming more polarized

[elsayeeda]

Oh you little plastic bottle, with your magic discs inside. I forgot you yesterday, and started to feel it today. So I cracked one of your discs in half, and I took it with my coffee. I'm only taking half a disc for a week, and then I'm leaving you. Don't be sad, it's harder on me than you anyway. I doubt you will even feel it.

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BRAINDRUGS DRAMA

okay so how legal/moral is it for a doctor who prescribes you notably brain-chemistry-altering medication to be like NOPE at random because he hasn't seen you in a month because HIS schedule has been full for two straight weeks and the one appointment you had was made by mistake  (it took place at the same time as a final class presentation and I had to cancel it)

I've had to stop 40mg of citalopram almost cold turkey (I split my last dose between two days) because this chucklefuck cut me off without warning and I have no idea what to fucking do right now.  I found out from the pharmacy that he denied it, nobody warned me, nobody mentioned this!!

I have an appointment with him on Thursday but I'm so fucking weirded out that I almost want to just smack his glasses off his face and go find another doctor-- the only problem with the latter is I don't have a car and so I couldn't drive to them, wherever they are

what even the christ

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I am never ever ever going to let myself forget to renew my meds again

fuck thissssss

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just now for the first time since Friday morning I felt good enough to get up and do some very minor exercises, the ones I do when carpal tunnel's bugging me

it is a huge improvement from the slug-like lethargy I've been feeling for four solid days

I hope things continue in this vein!