Oct 5, 2025
Why is it that every time I try to be productive, my brain decides it's the perfect moment to remember that one embarrassing thing I said in 2012?
Like, come on, brain, I need to focus on the present, not my past awkwardness.
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Why is it that every time I try to be productive, my brain decides it's the perfect moment to remember that one embarrassing thing I said in 2012?
Like, come on, brain, I need to focus on the present, not my past awkwardness.
wonder what its like in a washing machine that can’t kill you and is on.
my brain concerns me
Mario Kart...but Hetalia.
So, awhile back I had this weird, whacked-out dream that I was playing Mario Kart....except it was Hetalia characters. I was England on a motorcycle. It was weird but interesting at the same time.
But then it got me thinking about what if this actually was a video game, and now I really want HetaliaKart as a game. I don’t know why. Brain, why? Why have you done this to me?
You took up all the space in my heart all those years ago, and I can't fit anything else now. Not even for myself.
Musings~ // 7:33pm
Stan Lee Dream
So, I'm a friggin weeb. I dreamed I met Stan Lee. But I kinda fudged up. With my imagination.
Me: Omg, Stan Lee! I love your Yu-Gi-Oh cards! Your Yu-Gi-Oh cards give me experience!
Stan Lee: Come this way, child. *leads me to Walmart and hands me a pack of Red Hots* It's been ages since I've heard a fan say how they love spearmint.
Brain why.
WHY BRAIN,WHY.
Was this it? Left as a pretty face with no story? No, that can’t be......
Can it?
I’ve been gone so long, I don’t even know who I am. Lu.....deer..... heh.... what a beautiful lie you’ve made.....
Liar, that’s all I am anymore? Who are you? What are you?
I am you, you me. Now, smile for the camera. Remember boy, all those you left behind? Your dear Xiumin, your close friend, Sehun? Huh? And the others, oh you should have SEEN their faces when they heard the news. First your leader, now this? What lovely thoughts they had.....
No....no...you’re wrong! I’m.....I’m.....*sigh*. I don’t know. I’m so tired, I can’t go on. I need to stop. Can I stop anymore?
Just hold still, and it’ll all go away. Rest for as long as you wish, no one’s going anywhere.
In fact, just leave me in charge. I’ll take good care of you, Lu.
Now, as I said before:
Smile for the camera.
I was screaming because I thought France was all over my dash but I then remembered I had searched up aphfrance.
I’m not even sure what I want to say about today’s counseling session. I’m always kind of down when they’re over, but I especially feel that way this time because I don’t think I explained myself right (and I’ve still got that little bit of worry that she thinks I’m making this all up) I’m trying to convince myself that it’s at least a start, but I’m not doing a very good job of that.