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Name: Bread and/or Mutt Pronouns: He/him, it/its, ce/cem, paw/paws, pup/pups, star/stars Age: 17 years Interests (in no particular order): Pigeons, biology, sociology, history, body modification, art. Hobbies: Researching, reading, walking

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This blog was made so I'd have a space to talk about my mental health. However, I'm starting to get better :) Currently, this blog is mainly just me talking about my day, with plenty of philosophical and ''old man yelling at cloud'' posts. Proper introduction time! My most used online name is Bread, but Mutt is also I'm a mixed, autistic, perisex, queer trans guy. My pronouns are he/it/ce/paw/pup/star. He/him are the most important pronouns, followed by it/its. The rest are in alphabetical order, please use them all!! I'm a (gender)queer guy, my queerness is about 50% of my gender if that makes sense. I'm also ace and ambiamorous, but I basically just identify as queer. Ask me about it if you have any questions; my DM's are always open to anything! As I said before, I'm 17 years old, I'll turn 18 this year. Don't be creepy to me because of my age please. I'm autistic. You'll probably notice this due to the way I speak, talk about my interests or analyse things. I will study religious sciences in a few years :) I am also chronically ill and disabled. I have chronic pain, IBS, endometriosis, PMDD, my stomach valve doesn't properly work, and I'm hypermobile to a fault. There are also other things "wrong" with my body, but those are the things that have names. I have struggled with MDD, disordered eating, self harm and suicidal ideation since my pre-teens; however, my relationship with food is about 90% on its way to being perfect, I'm sh free for a bit more than 3 months, and I haven't been suicidal in a couple weeks. I'm in remission for my depression as well. I currently take fluoxetine (20mg per day, orally, I take in the morning) and it's helping with all of this. Talk to me whenever please, I'm awkward as fuck, but I do like it :)

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Tags: #breaddevours : Me being positive about food, I will frequently post pictures. #breadvent : Vent. Can be about anything. #breadwrites : any writing that I do, mostly poetry #wahoo!! yippee!! : celebrating things, mainly the small things #transthoughts : anything to do with (me) being trans and queer #timeposting : counting down the days until I can do whatever random thing I'm occupied with at the moment. Mostly transition related. I'll add more when I start using more

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On the verge of tears again. Yay

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You know that one scene in Serial Experiments Lain where everyone is staring at her and saying nothing? That is just my life right now

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I'm so overstimulated from work it fucking sucked actually nothing about it was any fun whatsoever I fucking hate it I might as well quit they all hate me anyways what does it matter they fucking hate me I know it why else would they force me to cover up my arms they despise me I fucking know it they make me use those microfibre towels that feel like glass and make me use it but won't let me touch actual glass bc that's dangerous or whatever bullshit excuse they have. They hate me, they fucking hate me, but I can't leave. I need the money. Fuck this bullshit I don't even get why it would be like this

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I hate being queer in this society. My manager was being all nice and kind about me changing my legal name and gender and then another random supervisor calls me a lday. I fucking hate this. Fuck gender dysphoria so fucking much I hate this why do people have to think I'm a girl so often

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Turns out my family doesn't actually believe I'm trans. They ''just don't see it'' like they ever even see me. My mother understands that I'm an autistic queer man. My father thinks I'm a faker or smt. My grandmother is willing to believe me as long as I'm happy. Idk about my grandfather. But the rest of the family just doesn't believe me. Fuck them honestly. They KNOW about my suicide attempts. They know that I've been out for over 5 years. They fucking know how my friends call me and for how long. Literally why do they even think their opinion matters. Who do they even think they are. Literally why would their thoughts mean anything. Fuck them

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I've got the flu rn and it feels like I'm dying. I can't even walk towards my meds and I don't want to eat anything. I've already lost weight so I'm back at sqaure one. Fuck this

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As soon as someone takes more than 1 hour to reply to anything I automatically assume they hate me. Which isn't fair, but also I get why they would