#breakup blogging

[imthatqueerkid]

Water girl, water girl

I am such a goddamn bitch

Water girl, water girl

I will learn to live with it

[lesbianrustcohle]

the friend i made on my trip to paris is very kind, and she said the single most comforting thing i've heard today

sometimes non-native english just hits me on a deeper emotional level

[wild-west-wind]

I made choices last night (bad) and followed up by having intense nightmares about my ex.

As is often the case, this is going to be obvious to everyone other than me, but she really did a number on me and it is so annoying that nearly six months later I'm still struggling with it.

[bitternotbetter]

I'm his only friend on Snapchat and he watched my story

[daforged]

i was talkin abt my ex to my psychologist & some stuff that happened and every time i finish a story she's like "so hold on was ur ex 10 years old at the time?" and we laugh and she goes on abt how he simply wasnt emotionally mature enough to handle a relationship like i was/am

and honestly??? super fucking validating. i felt like i was literally going crazy for months & that i was in the wrong constantly and hearing her back me up and agree that he was the one doing me wrong and not the other way around is so amazing after a solid half year of not being able to figure out right from wrong

its incredibly liberating to have support and validation for my behaviour from a credible source after being told by multiple shitty adults i was manipulative & controlling & Bad for wanting to be loved and supported

[wishfulfanficing]

I wish there was a dating service for HanLeia Stans.

[infragalaxia]

Now that I’m considering yet another stay at the psychiatric ward and think about how I will deal with being a bit isolated from my friends, I realize that there was a major warning sign regarding my ex: he absolutely refused to visit me at the hospital because he feared that the friends that I made there would mock him for his behaviour. But all things considered, he was probably actually afraid of them calling him out for his treatment of me, seeing as almost all of them experienced emotional abuse at some point in their life and would have recognized it like instantly if they were around to see it.

If I had realized that sooner, I’d have spared myself a lot of pain over the years. But well, now I’m a bit wiser and will look for signs more closely in the future, I guess.

[altheterrible]

Love Song

When the sun rose, I was surprised; I was sure the world had ended. But dawn broke over a landscape that had never seen a war. And I know that my shrink has said that every day can have a reset button, but it's not right, my god, it's not fair. It's like you were never there. I trusted night would take away the pain but morning light just cast it in long shadows and I limped along the same. It's been 2 years and I'm still writing. It's been 2 years and I hope you're alive. It's been 2 years and I hope you've suffered.