Okay, you fucking demons. Here we go. My confession about the things that I did, just for you. I hope you're satisfied now.
Yes, I criticized a player and their character of an old campaign I was part of in front of my new D&D group.
Yes, I openly said that I don't click with the DMing style of my last DM and found it not balanced enough for our party setup.
Yes, I complained about how I didn't feel integrated enough in my last group, amd how I was often talked over by them.
Yes, I overexaggerated some things because they felt worse for me at that particular moment than they actually were.
Yes, I made some passive-aggressive posts in response to the conflict. Y'all don't need to crack out the screenshots for that. Just because I deleted them, doesn't mean I try to deny them.
Yes, I called someone immature for not being willing to sort that shit out with me.
Yes, I was very angry and said some not so nice things.
Yes, I 'lied', if that's what you want to call reacting badly in the heat of the moment and later thinking about it, calling it a misunderstanding ON MY PART and trying to apologize for it.
Yes, I alluded to who I argued with to friends, but only because it's clear as fucking day to anyone who knows me longer than 5 minutes.
CONCLUSION: Yes, I am not a perfect person, definitely make quite a lot of mistakes, and can most certainly be cruel and vengeful if I'm not actively fighting my impulses. But I have and will never hide behind lies and talking behind someone's back. I always state things as they are to the people in question first. Only then do I retreat into sharing my sorrows with friends to vent and not take it out on the person I'm currently at odds with. I don't take responsibility if they chose not to listen, and certainly not for things I have never said in the way they're portrayed as. I do, however, take full responsibility for what I've done, and accept that some friendships had to end over it. I know the cost of growing well enough to not salt my and other's fields over it.
That's my statement to what went down. Full disclosure, no topics unaddressed unless I forgot something, in which case I'm happy enough to edit them in if you shoot me a message about it. I have nothing to hide and am not too proud to stand by my mistakes, even though that unfortunately still is my first reaction because I still need time to process and confront things I did in order to see my own bad moves. I'm working on that with my psychiatrist, though, so you can kindly shove your colorful commentary about how I am a crazy bitch that needs therapy up your asses, my dear, angry nonnies. 😘
Btw, if you want to have nothing to do with me after reading all this, I'm not mad. Everyone should do what they think is best for themselves.