#breakup rant

[meanslackofart]

i feel like I'm experiencing all the stages of grief at once, I'm in denial, angry, bargaining, in depression and accepting the situation as well. it's crazy.

[meanslackofart]

never thought i would listen to the Spotify Breakup Mix for the real reasons and not just for the songs in that mix.

[meanslackofart]

am i delulu or what, because i was just thinking that once we start talking again, and when we'll go through my tumblr posts then he'll see what i was feeling because i know i can never tell him whatever i'm feeling exactly and just say it was hard.

[pisci04071]

I think the worst part is that I know you’re hurting and I want to take care of you, support you, help you, really do anything to make your day easier and your load lighter but, it’s not my job to anymore. It would be cruel to do that right now and I hate that.

[manicmandays]

Im so hurt from this breakup. We were together for almost five years. I thought we knew everything about each other.

Even though they've treated me like I was nothing in still would treat them like a human being if they just talked to me.

I know our relationship was done, we weren't a good fit anymore we were enabling each other and what we needed in life was clashing with what the other needed.

I can accept the breakup but I hate that they've tossed me aside like im trash, like I never meant anything at all in their life.

I miss my best friend. I know from other people they've cried about missing their best friend too. I never wanted to stop being their friend they're the one that decided they were done with me and didn't even have the courage to give me a proper goodbye.

I feel like i wasted years of my life chasing them like a lovesick puppy. They did love me once upon a time but they started listening to what other people said about me instead of seeing the truth of me.

I will fully own my part in the relationship failing and I will apologize until the throat is raw but nothing i say matters when the person I want to say it to won't even bother to give me a simple "I'm sorry i hurt you"

[upsilons-musings]

You know sometimes I wonder how you're taking this whole situation and it just makes my brain hurt and want more rum

[fromxruin]

I’m going to rant about something I neeeever do

Tonight I was dumped. It was one of those breakups that feels more like a death than a break up because you knew it was coming, you didn't cause it, there was nothing you could do to prevent it and then when it happens out of nowhere you feel like something has been ripped away from you that you will never get back and you don't love the person any less. It’s like the relationship was terminally ill.

Right now i have no job, no money and nowhere to move to away from him, so I’m stuck packing with nowhere to go. I’m pretty bummed out right now and there is nothing that i can do about it. It happened in the worst possible time in my life.

I hate ranting about my personal life but i don't really have anyone to rant to irl.