#brerambles

[agent-holden-ford]

i think the reason i haven't listened to orphan much is because for some reason it gives me this weird nostalgic feeling of being 12-13 and i have no idea why. it's such a strong and intense feeling and it doesn't even make sense, but it hurts. almost all nostalgia does but for some reason it hit me right in the feels worst of all. but the more i listen to it the more i can kind of accept and appreciate the feelings it gives me? and like...be okay with them? i'm starting to realise i've had a shitty fucking life and that i can't heal from it if i just keep compartmentalising and avoiding. so...it's healing to me in some way that i have this album. thanks, empires.

[memefxcker]

I had a great day but? Every time that I try to sort out my frustrations and find the root of them all it always comes down to one thing and it is so so SO frustrating because I can change the thing but I'm a weakling

[memefxcker]

just saw my dad for the second time in the past few months, he took me to dinner. he was being kind to me, he told me that he has missed me a lot over the past few months, he told me that i was beautiful, and tomorrow evening we are going to go play tennis together

i really needed that time with him i think even though i kept telling myself that i didn't lmao

[memefxcker]

i want a kid like the kid in the chicken video. a kid who is gentle & sweet with animals. but do i actually want kids? i think i would be a good mom. but i am also too selfish for that. or can that selfishness just be ascribed to the fact that i am a young adult? is it temporary? and how do people even afford kids. they are so expensive. and so many things can go wrong with kids.

i can't even decide where I want to continue my schooling. why am I thinking about kids.

[memefxcker]

source your fucking art posts it literally takes 1 minute to figure out where something came from by using a reverse image search such as tineye

[memefxcker]

THERE'S A N ORCHID FESTIV AL AT MY LOCAL BOTANICAL GARDEN THIS WEEKEND -RIPS SHIRT OFF-

[memefxcker]

melloprincess is the most shrektastic person that i know

[memefxcker]

rehearsal tonight was exhausting! idek why because we didn't sound bad or anything