#brightlightsstarrynights

[learnafrikaans]

Do you know of any sites that could basically link you up with people who spoke Afrikaans. I've been studying for awhile but I'd really like to get some actual practice in. I guess any sites with a penpal or something like that.

Sorry to say I don’t know any, just some used for all languages, like speaky :(

[fol-dee-rol-blog]

I saw your arrival date was january 13th right? That's mine too! Have you found anyone else with that day

No, I was having a hard time so I changed my date to the 20th! aaaaand I’m still having a hard time making friends. ahaha. oops. :(

[goodbyedefydeny]

Lolol. I know right!! It was absolutely amazing and I am literally crying!  XD

[brightlightsstarrynights]

Dear Zach

Tell me you feel the same way. Tell me you are scared to lose me. Tell me you want me forever. Tell me you're falling for me. Tell me how much I mean to you. Because honestly you mean the world to me. I'm terrified of losing you. I want you and us forever. I'm falling for you. I have been since the day we met when you first walked through the door.

[brightlightsstarrynights]

Dear Zach

Everything is just so easy with you. The first time we hung out after the party I was singing along to the radio which I never do and normally whenever I would kiss a guy or just basically do anything I would constantly be thinking about what I should do like where do I put my hands..stupid stuff like that. But with you it's so different! It's just so natural with you! Even when I thought I was in love with someone it never ever felt like this. It feels like I've been on this ladder I guess. Like every guy I've been with was just one step better and the guys just kept getting better and you're the top of the ladder. I know that I will never again meet a guy like you. You can try and tell me all you want how there are so many great guys out there like you but they aren't you. So it doesn't even matter. It just seems so perfect between us. I mean I know it's not perfect but I think that all the flaws just make it perfect. Maybe none of this even made sense but I have to get it off my chest before it suffocates me.

[brightlightsstarrynights]

Dear Zach

I know I should be happy for you that you are going back so soon and I am a little happy that you're getting what you want but I can't be happy when I'm losing the greatest thing in my life. I've never had anyone just leave like this. I don't know how to handle it. Whenever I'm with you I always try to act like 18 months isn't that long but that's 18 months of not seeing you and not hearing your voice or your laugh. 18 months of not holding your hand or kissing you or hugging you. Okay from now on I'm going to hug you and kiss you every chance I get. I don't even care if anyone is around.

[brightlightsstarrynights]

Dear Zach

There is so much I want to say to you but I don't know how. I'm terrified I will say something and you wont feel the same. Last night I almost said something to you without even thinking about what I was saying. I stopped myself before saying it though and then you said how people always say the truth when they are tired. I'm so unbelievable scared that I will tell you and you're are going to say something along the lines of you're leaving and you don't want to be committed or that you don't feel the same. I've always believed that if someone says something to you and it just like slipped without them realizing that they actually mean it. I know how I feel and I know it's real but you're a different story. I don't know how you feel or what you want.

[brightlightsstarrynights]

Dear Zach

When I met you it felt like we had known each other forever. We get on so well it's crazy! I love spending time with you even if it's just for a few seconds. At the movies when you had your arms around me and I had my head on your chest it was as if we were the only ones in the entire world. It was perfect. And then when we were kissing in your car and I said how I got butterflies every time we kissed and you described perfectly how it felt (your heart stops beating for a second and its like you ran a marathon) and then you said you felt the same way. I just want you in my life forever. I'm going to give this everything I have. I'm going to work harder on us than any relationship i've ever been in because I want you forever. I just keep thinking "please lord don't let this be a way to show me that I shouldn't give up on love. please don't let him be just an example. please let him be the one for me." I want you to be my prince charming. I want to fall asleep in your arms and wake up every morning next to you. I want to do everything you have talked about together. Running that race in every spot it goes to. having eight children and one with a z name but not zach. I want to spend time with you and make memories. and laugh and smile and even cry just so you can kiss me like your grandpa said. I want to make wishes at 11:11. I want to go to Utah and meet your family. I just want to be with you. I'm so scared you don't think the same way since you're leaving so soon. But I'm giving you everything I have from here on out. Ek es lief vir jou <3