I've been on a journey in the last week. I'm not a competitive player. Competition brings out the worst in me, not in public outburst way, but in a simmering self loathing way.
But my early success in Omega Strikers spurred me on to try to improve my rankings into (at least) gold league.
I kind of regret trying hard over the last couple of weeks, the frustration I feel from trying and losing with randomized teammates has left a sour taste in my mouth. This transformed a game I saw as a really fun diversion into the give and take of bad feelings and short lived elation when something actually comes together. The bad feelings seem to linger and the elation does not. Typical human brain bullshit.
I think treating it as a fun thing to stream, is and was the better choice. I will of course always enjoy winning more than losing, but I need to be comfortable with never progressing out of my current league when I play with randomized teams.
I have no interest in building a team to compete with either, I don't want to have one more obligation in my life, feel like I'm letting people down or other's getting upset that I've let them down. How is that a good use of time?
This has been, some random feelings about Omega Strikers. Thank you for attending my Ted(x) talk.