hey barber, could I have some advice? i'm a male witch, too, and i had an interest in witchcraft for the longest time, but it never really seemed to work with me. no spells, sigils, charms or anything ever seemed to work, no matter how much faith or effort i put into them. i want to be able to believe in and live magick, but it seems like i'm just ... not. every day i want to pull my old spellbooks back out, but i quickly loose any motivation and begin to doubt myself again. what do i do ?
To start off, I’m sorry that it’s been pulling you down like that, it can be really tough to want something so much and not have it work out the way you planned. Just know you aren’t alone, everyone who has an interest in witchcraft goes through it at some point in their life.
So my first piece of advice builds off that: lose your expectations. Don’t go into it thinking you’re going to be super powerful, or you’re going to be having lunch with spirits, or talking weaponry with Hephaestus and Odin. Just be open to whatever comes your way. This builds off that phrase I always end up using “Mundane before Magic.” What this means is that magic isn’t a replacement, it’s the added thing, the extra. You do everything you can to achieve your goals through the regular tried and true route: hardwork and planning. Magic comes in to stack the deck in your favor.
Does it always work? No. Not even for me, or other witches who’ve been doing this even longer. But that doesn’t matter as much, because you know that you did everything you could to achieve that goal. That’s what’s important. If it did work, that’s where it gets tricky, because was it the stuff you did, or the magic? They become so intertwined it’s hard to separate, and that’s what living like a witch is like for me. Whether things come to pass because of hard work, or magical means isn’t the point, because they ended up working out for me.
What draws so many people to their craft is power. Not necessarily to rule the world, or to learn to levitate, but the sincere need to reclaim their own power by connecting to something outside themselves. It is an outlet for emotions that can’t be expressed for one reason or another, it is a tool to add to and give form to the subconcious wants and desires, it is a lense to look at the world through and make sense of it in a way that give a better grasp on who we are.
This leads me to my next piece of advice: Start small, and start with what you like.This may be just a me thing, but I’ve got an inquisitive brain, and I joke that my hobby is collecting hobbies. Start reading things that interest you, not necessarily because you’re seeking to do whatever the book entails, but because you like it. It doesn’t have to be a quiz, no notations and bibliography are going to be asked of you, just read what you like. Look at artwork, read quotes, poetry, science, whatever! It seeps in when you aren’t thinking about it. It also helps you figure out what you actually believe in and what resonates, and what maybe isn’t for you.
When I look at my craft, it’s simple. If I like it, I do it. My day to day stuff is just, what I do. It’s normal for me and makes me feel better about myself and my place in the world. I come home, I light a candle, maybe some incense if the air is stale. I read fiction, fantasy, books about witches and folklore. I make things: jewelry, wood work, ointments, oils, whatever I feel inspired to make, then I make it. I’ll draw a tarot card or a few and see what they mean. I think about my day.
What I’m getting at is that witchraft is simple if you take the pressures off. Sure you see stuff that might make you jealous, or inspired, or think “I could never do that” on tumblr. We all want a cauldron big enough to fit a small town, and enough crystals to choke a whale, but that’s not realistic for everyone. That’s not why I share stuff. I share it because for me, this stuff is simple because it’s what I enjoy, and my views of witchcraft are pretty laid back. Do what makes you happy, and don’t worry about others. There’s no rush, or timeline. No benchmarkers that say by this time you should be able to *insert blank*. Witchcraft is about yourself, not about what others think, or even where you think you should be. We all learn at different rates, and tbh, you probably know more about certain things than I do! We all have our strengths, the trick is figuring out that that weakest part of ourselves, is viewed as our greatest asset by others.
I hope this helps, truly, and if you ever want to ask me questions, or just chat about a shitty boss, or an awesome dinner you made, hit me up. We’re all brothers right? You got this!