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something something bruce being content enough for the justice system to merely send garzonas away, to continue his raping and abusing outside of bruce's purview, and bruce letting red hood kill until he did it in front of bruce
something about his perceived scope of responsibility, of action and inaction, and his willingness to turn a blind eye. something about how he views his own culpability and the rippling effects of his own actions
I saw your post about immortal!jay who doesn't want the rest of the bats to know and i've been! chewing on this idea and absolutely obsessed with it since the initial post but the reblog reminded me of it again and I'm so so crazy for it
Like, it's so angsty and delicious, just imagining Jay (who will put up with/do like. a hell of a lot. for just crumbs of affection) begging to be loved for the right reasons, but worrying, instead, that the idea of people liking him better dead will be confirmed (that they'll ask him to die, again, again, again, and he'll do it, because maybe this time?)
It's so sad too but I can't help but love it...and it's not even a stretch like?? I feel like the time Bruce took Jay back to the warehouse after Damian's death should count for this, and of course the mess that is gotham war 148...
(148 is. so bad and honestly gotham war in general is not. great. but I appreciate it for the jay whump potential truly. I am literally always down for messed up and evil brujay in a gotham war setting. the implications/subtext? insane. i would love to hear thoughts, if any, that you have about the rest of gw.)
(also all your posts are SO good like...the jay ones/bruce and jay ones are inspired!! love love love it)
no exactly anon!!!!
like, of course he would do it, he'll do anything, but god, having to face the fact that they would ask him? that even the one thing everyone agrees changed bruce irrevocably, the thing that changed everything, could become so commonplace and expected,,, yeah. yeah yeah.
this is my son and his special skill is suicide. he kills himself for me for the rest of my life. would be fucking devastating insane.
i can see him saving their lives (dying in the process) and gaslighting the shit out of them about it, but how easily they believe his lies is its own torture to him, right? because damn, they really did Not Care enough about how he could have been (and WAS) hurt during whatever rescue.
ugh and then if bruce did find out or suspect, would it be worse if he never straight up asked. if it was like 148 and just...implied. and jason threw himself on the pyre for that brief spark of praise??
but 148 was so goddamned awful. not even - i will eat up the angst of the lobotomy, because that i can see in bruce's wheelhouse, man has Control Issues and zur was rocking the helm, right. and,,, the angst my god. no one can tell me anything because it's sooo sexual assault allegory to me. taking away his autonomy, hijacking his very nervous system?? and having it planned,,, like.
plus, selina has just started a gang war. he doesn't do it to her. he never treats his lover rogues the way he treats jason. and he never treats his not-lover rogues the way he treats jason either. it's fucking crazy. i understand the 'his children are extensions of himself' projection thing that occurs often, but/and/also...i am always thinking of "you love me too much" to stop me panel, y'know? and how much of bruce being especially violent and loss of control with jason is a deep resentment of how strongly he feels for him and how he fears it affects his judgement..
but 148 just straight up isn't bruce. like okay i can twist some narratives around to keep it semi in character but i truthfully just want to reject it. bruce will always choose to die over killing someone else. his whole ocd is needing to prevent loss of life in front of himself. etc etc.
i fear ive lost the plot and rambled a lot but just remember. jason hiding immortality because his dying is the one thing he has left to himself. and he can't stand the idea of it being taken and used for the mission without it being his personal decision to do so.
okay wait and also. jason being derided even more for seeming extra reckless, because he IS throwing himself into situations to save people. so even his self sacrifice and heroism is denigrated by his family 😭💀
thank you anon i love you!
ive literally just convinced myself of this but immortal jason todd and bruce wayne who hates that he sacrifices himself while begrudgingly acknowledging how useful it is...and then also shamefully reveling in the way it gets to play out differently this time. he gets to go to his boy and hold him and mourn and this time his boy wakes up. this time he doesn't stay gone from him for years. this time he's there when he wakes up, he can hold him..
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Batman - All Media Types Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Jason Todd & Bruce Wayne Characters: Bruce Wayne, Jason Todd Additional Tags: Reconciliation, maybe. for them. on their way. maybe, Late Night Conversations, Guilt, Anger Series: Part 2 of not for lack of love, nor lack of blood Summary:
Bruce wants to ask. He wants to ask his son how old he is, and what happened; if Bruce is still his dad. He wants to ask what, exactly, would have made everything turn out differently. He never wants to know, his failings already lined up like a firing squad inside his own head. He wants to brush his hand through Jason's hair. He wants to never see that scar on his son's throat again.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Batman - All Media Types Rating: Not Rated Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Jason Todd & Bruce Wayne Characters: Bruce Wayne, Jason Todd Additional Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Reconciliation, Whump, briefly, Implied/Referenced Character Death, re: Jason's first death Series: Part 1 of not for lack of love, nor lack of blood Summary:
"You've been avoiding me. Haven't seen hide nor hair of you since I woke up, so I can only assume you're disappointed."
One of Bruce's greatest flaws is his willingness to suffer from miscommunication and assumptions rather than expose himself, rather than lay himself bare, but Jason—Jason has earned a conversation. Maybe Bruce has earned it, too.
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Jason is injured and a little too honest. In the aftermath, Bruce and Jason have an overdue talk
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Batman - All Media Types Rating: Not Rated Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Jason Todd & Bruce Wayne Characters: Bruce Wayne Additional Tags: Experimental Style, self-justification, which isn't a tag but im not sure what else to put, Guilt Summary:
you are a boy. you are a boy and then you are a man but there is a boy inside you still.
you are hurt and you are lost and you need help. you need to help. you are anger and you are love and you are optimism.
something something bruce lost a child first to the beginning of their own life and then another to their end. and over and over and over
