once again i am back as i said i would be! i did not follow through with any of the things ive mentioned though... i havent necessarily been rotting? ive been working on trying to make my notion. its pretty confusing and super frustrating though. i also have been scrolling through tumblr and watching gilmore girls... i made some ramen, cleaned the kitchen, and emptied the dishwasher. i still have to take out the trash
school wise i need to do my day 2 english packet, questions 5-8 for honors chem, and get some more outlining done. i also had a honors geometry quiz today... i believe i did well because it was easy but the scores arent out yet...
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im on season 2 episode 8 of my gilmore girls rewatch of the year! my god i hate dean so much... everything he does reminds me of a certain someone... (@j3llybee12 you would know)
but speaking of that certain someone he needs to actually calm tf down cus wdym he got mad at his gf for not wanting to go to flex with him??
anyway back to gilmore girls... i also cant stand emily... she has her moments but overall shes just so much... richard is the better one
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my mom is currently out of town for a business trip so its just my sister and my dad. todays dinner conversation was him telling me he heard some saxophone deals from my uncle (mine is so old it keeps breaking so we're looking into getting a new one) except he told me that he wants me to do my lessons once a week. i dont have a problem with that except i told him a while ago that i didnt want to do them every week during marching band season so i got a bit angry with that. its been a lot recently with my close friend gone (she moved) my childhood bsf still ghosting me, busy and stressful marching band season...
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today in band class our teacher told us about chair auditions and then talked to the saxophones about solo auditions for one of the pieces. i really want to get it bc ive wanted a solo for years... but unfortunately i know someone who is extremely good but keeps announcing they are going to get it which is annoying but im just trying to get through it
and now the topic of my childhood bsf ghosting me... i literally dont know what to do anymore and its eating me ALIVE. apparently shes trying to avoid any confrontation and it started with us planning to go to the state fair which was about a MONTH ago and ig the day we were planning was her only free day from cross country and she didnt want to spend that day out but after i found out i told her that i know and that while i may be disappointed that we couldnt plan something together but i just really want her to talk to me but she has not said anything and ive tried SO hard and idk what to do anymore. im worried i did something and that im gonna lose her and i really dont want to. please someone give me tips on what to do...
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anyway i think i yapped a bit too much so i apologize for that... im realizing its been a lot recently with marching band and stuff but i think im gonna do my work and have an ice cream bar!! have a goodnight everyone and ill post again tomorrow :>
getting blocked by my bsf on tumblr was not on my 2025 bingo card but i guess we’re just humans looking for validation. she was the only one who understood me but it’s obvious she didn’t like me as much as i liked her. thats okay
