Mistakes and Miracles- ch.4
Summary: We never know what to expect in life . Just like you never expected to be a single mother at a young age, much less come to find the father of said child is no other than you bias Min Yoongi from the world wide sensation, BTS. What will happen to your somewhat “normal” life when he comes in and turns it upside down? Will you be able to raise a child with your extremely attractive bias?
Warnings: strong language (kind of?)
You were dressing Baby Ro when you received Yoongi’s message. It wasn’t everyday you had your favorite idol come to your home. However, you couldn’t bring yourself to enjoy the experience because you knew he why was there.
As much as you wanted this issue to be sorted out, a part of you wanted to keep the baby all to yourself. After all, who else would be better suited to protect him, you’ve been with him since before he was born. Now you spent every waking moment insuring he has the best life possible.
Although, you respected Yoongi as a person and a Ro’s father you knew with his lifestyle there would be a target on your child’s back. There would be so many things neither you or Yoongi could protect him from once word got out of his existence.
You were pulled from your thoughts by your cooing baby boy. As you look down at him you start to realized how much he looks like his father. The same sleepy eyes and button nose. The way they crinkled every time he smiled. He was such an easy baby, as long as he was fed and had frequent naps. Yup, just like his daddy.
You continued to dress him you could help but picture him in Yoong’s arms. Would Yoongi be happy? Did he want this? Would he want to take the baby and raise him himself? Could this possibly be the last day you spend with your baby?
You pushed those thoughts to the back of your mind because if you fixated on them you would surely cry your eyes out. You were scared but you kept reminding yourself… he’s his son too.
Everyone around you thought you were crazy for thinking this way. They would ask why you spent so much time fighting for custody when you would so easily hand the baby over to his father. Your answers was always the same. “I wouldn’t be handing him over. Yes, I love him as though he were mine but, as much as it hurts to admit, he is not. His father has the same right, if not more, to be in his life. If being with his father is best, then I will give him his best shot at life. However, I will always be a part of his life, no matter what it takes.”
No one really questioned you after that.
You took one last look at yourself in the mirror. You didn’t really dress up for the occasion but you made a little more effort than your usual jeans and T-shirt. You opted for cute comfortable skirt with a tucked in T-shirt and light makeup.
The doorbell rang as you finished dressing Baby Ro in his Kumamon overalls. You carefully laid him in his crib in your room while you answered the door.
As soon as you opened your door your inner fangirl died when you laid eyes on Yoongi. He wore all black. From his Converse to his ripped jeans to his tee shirt to his face mask to his beanie. You shyly let him in trying not to obvious of the intimidation he made you feel.
He was always your bias not only because of his talent but because of the love he showed for his family and the members and ARMY. The good looks were a bonus. And boy, did he look good.
“Hi I’m—” just then Ro started crying. You excused yourself and went to your room to get him.
Once he was wrapped in his favorite blanket you brought him out to meet Yoongi. As you walked out of the room you noticed Yoongi had an uninterested look. You didn’t want to look too much into it.
He could possibly just be unsure of how to handle the situation. You were trying to be considerate but could help the hurt in your heart thinking he didn’t want anything to do with his son. However, his composure faltered when he saw the little guy in your arms. His hard exterior melted as he looked at his son. He even took his mask off to get a better view.
He wanted to hate you. He really did. Mainly because he didn’t know you and you were a part of the reason he wasn't with his son. True, it wasn’t your fault but he needed someone to blame.
If he was completely honest with himself he was only angry because he was jealous. You had a bond with a child that was supposed to be his. He saw you as an obstacle that stopped him from being part of the child’s life.
But that moment that door opened that was gone. His breath got caught in the back of his throat. He couldn’t trust his voice to speak so he opted for a cold stare. Thank god he was wearing the mask and a beanie or you would have seen the obvious blush that rose on his cheeks and his ears.
He never thought he'd be grateful for a baby’s interrupting but he secretly thanked Little Min for saving him. When you ran to get him Yoongi got a chance to compose himself.
He put on the cold face just in time as you walked out of your bedroom. He thought you were just checking on the baby but you actually brought him out to meet him.
There was no denying it. This was his son. It was like looking at a picture of his younger self. The same eyes, nose, and even the same pouty lips. He studied every feature on his son’s tiny face and with every detail he loved him even more.
He even noticed that he was dressed in a Kumamon outfit. Not that he would ever admit it but, Yoongi found it sweet that you dressed him an outfit with his favorite character. It was a small gesture that most would not recognize but he felt you did it to give him a connection to something familiar in such a confusing situation.
In that moment Yoongi’s heart fluttered again, answer number three, do anything and everything for this child. As long as Little Min was happy, Yoongi couldn’t give a damn what happened to the rest of the world.
The moment he laid eyes on that angelic face his perspective seemed to shift yet again. This life was no longer Yoongi’s but the baby’s. Not even a minute passed by and Yoongi was already wrapped around his little finger. But right now these emotions were getting in the way of his plan. He had to be cold and calculated to get what he wanted.
“Would you like to hold him?” You asked with a smile. For minute you thought you saw the sweet Yoongi you hoped he would be but, all of that crumbled the next.
“No. I don’t want anything to do with him until we have a clear contract of how things are going to go from here on out.” Yoongi stopped for a moment realizing he said all of that in Korean. Not sure if you understood. But you did, every painful word.
Your love for BTS lead you to learn Korean, yet another reason why a private meeting with Yoongi would be no problem, or so you thought.
The worst part is he said everything so casually and with no remorse like he was trying to make a deal. A deal that he could care less about.
“Of course this all he is to you right? A contract. Just some dirty little secret you want to hide. Another one of your little mistakes...nothing more?” You said with venom in your voice and in fluent Korean.
You could see the shock in Yoongi’s eyes. You give him one last disgusted look, scoffed, and took Ro back to your room. As soon as you put him down he’s out like a light.
Now you had to go out there and face that heartless man. He was not the sweet boy you loved all these years. He didn’t have a trace of compassion or love in his eyes.
He was everything you wanted to protect Ro from. There was no way that man in your living room was taking this sweet baby boy. He would have to kill you first. You took one last look at Ro peacefully sleeping in his crib. You cleaned your stray tears, straightened up, and walked out of your room. Time to protect what’s mine.
When you walked out of your room again all the joy was wiped from your eyes. Now there lay only anger. It sent a shiver down Yoongi’s spine. But he had to remain cold to get what he wanted.
“Let’s begin then. Wouldn’t want this deal to keep you. I’m sure your idol schedule is far more important than your own flesh and blood.” Your words were so sharp the cut straight to Yoongi’s heart. He physically felt a pain that made him flinch.
Stay strong. Once you get him out of here you will make it up to him. He’s not just some contract, you know that. He kept reminding himself.
He cleared his throat and went on, “Very well. Bottom line, he is my son and I want him with me so I can raise him as I wish. Looking around I can tell you can’t give him much. I’m sorry to say your “good intentions” are not enough. When it comes to this child everything has to be well thought out. He’s not just a normal baby, he can be the end of many careers, including my own.” Yoongi said as indifferent as possible even though his words were killing him.
“Here he may have a simple life but with me he can go to the best schools and be raised to be an honorable man. One day he will inherit what I’ve made. Y/N, I’m not just some guy. I’m a celebrity, I’m sure you understand. I’m may not be a millionaire but I do have some money that he will need to learn to manage one day. And by the looks of it this quaint place it’s not good enough for the expectations and plans I have for him.”
Keep it together. She’ll break soon. Then you can give her whatever she wants and leave with your son. Every word that came out his mouth felt like acid. He hates talking about his son this way but he needed you to be scared of him. If he was emotional like before he could lose everything, again.
The anger you tried to control exploded. How dare he talk about your son like that? How could he talk about HIS son that way?
“Who do you think you are?” You said angrily
“No!” You tried to control yourself but you were yelling at him by this point. “You may have money and fame but you know what you don’t have?!?... A HEART!”
Your voice was cracking but that didn’t stop you. “You are the exact opposite of the kind of man I want that baby to be. He is everything that is good in this world. Y-you are just some heartless MONSTER!! You will have to take him over my dead body. There is no way I would ever let him near you much less leave with you. All he is to you is a pon. He’s a human being; Min Yoongi!” You spat.
“Not only that, he is YOUR son. If he is such a burden to you just sign over custody to me. You clearly don’t want him but I do. He already lost one selfish parent. He has me...he doesn’t need you or your money. Losing you would be nothing to him.” You tried composing yourself but you were beyond angry.
“If it’s your career your worried about...rest assured no one will ever know he exists. I will never contact you again and I will never tell him who his father is.” Your eyes began to water but you can’t cry in front of him. You can’t seem weak.
Yoongi looked at you wide eyes. He clearly was not waiting for you to fight back. He kept opening and closing his mouth looking for a response. His reaction made you stand up and scoff. This shocked Yoongi even more, it looked like he was expecting you to hit him because he physically coward away from you.
“Get out!” You yelled at him and pointed to the door.
The fear in Yoongi’s eyes was evident but it wouldn’t sway you. Not when HE was the one that threatened Ro’s and your happiness. Not when HE couldn’t even see his son as a defenseless child that needs his father.
“ I said get out.” It said sharply. “I agreed to have this meeting because I thought I was meeting with a real person. Not some cocky idol who does not want this baby. You only have money on your mind and not the Ro’s best interest. You didn’t even want to hold him!! What’s wrong with you?!? You really think I’ll give him up now? If you want him you will fight legally. This was your opportunity to prove you were a man I wanted to raise this child but you’re not. You are NO father so get out!!”
Yoongi was at a loss for words. After a short silence he got up and walked toward the door. You opened it for him. Once he stepped out you slammed the door on him. You forgot you had a sleeping baby in the other room. Not a moment later Ro was crying again and so were you.
You wiped away a few tears and went back to your room. All your anger subsided as you held your son again.
“It’s okay little guy I’m not going to let anyone take you, I promise. That mean man doesn’t deserve you. Your mommy maybe gone and your daddy is crazy but you’ll always have me. I’ll protect you.” You shushed him and rocked him until he went back to sleep.
Once he was sleeping peacefully again, you walked into the living room and finally cried like you were a scared child. You muffled your sobs in your hand. You had to break down now so you didn’t break later.
You sat there for an hour letting all the pain and anger you felt out. Then you realized it was time to get it together for Ro’s sake. You had arrange your defense for the storm that was about to hit you. You picked up your phone and made a call.
Yoongi had no idea what just happened. He had a plan. Go in, make you fear him, and get his son back. But, in all honesty he was the one afraid. He had heard the term “mama bear” but never saw it in action. Seeing you defend Little Min terrified him but a small part of him, that he is not proud of, was weirdly turned on.
You weren’t what he expected. From the moment he walked into your home he could feel the love. Everywhere he looked there were things for Little Min. Toys, clothes, and blankets. It was like a baby paradise. It didn’t seem like he was in needed of anything because you gave him everything. But it wasn’t the material things you gave him, it was the love. That was the first thing he noticed when you held Little Min. There was pure love in your eyes.
Those eyes, god those eyes that drove Yoongi mad the minute they met his. The same eyes that held a fire burning with a desire to protect something you truly cared for. The same eyes that looked at him with disgust and hate.
He was honestly disgusted with himself. That was no way to talk to you. You had selflessly given up your life to raise a baby that wasn’t even yours. He should be thanking you not ridiculing you. If it wasn’t for you who knows where Little Min would be right now.
I need to fix this if not for my sake, for her sake and the sake of Little Min. He headed straight for the hotel and called the boys.
“Hey, guys.” Yoongi said with as much fake joy as he could muster. He scratched his neck nervously. When they find out what he had just done they were not going to be happy.
Even if they had just found out they were uncles, Yoongi could tell they already loved their nephew. Namjoon had already recommended baby books he insisted he had to read in order to“be ready for when the baby comes.” They were maternity books that Yoongi found pointless because his son was not a newborn. However, he indulged his younger friend and promised to read at least one of the books on the plane. Unfortunately, he fell asleep around chapter three, ‘Breast Feeding.’
Namjoon was not the only one though. Jin was already trying “baby friendly” recipes even though he was told more than once the baby was too young to eat solid food. He kept saying it was for future reference.
Hobi was already thinking about all the dances he was going to teach his nephew, even though he knew that was in still in the far future. He couldn't contain his excitement, always describing how imagined Yoongi as father. Teasing him saying he wasn’t going to sleep for a very long time.
However, no one was more excited than the younger members. Jimin had gone out and bought the baby toys the day after Yoongi told them the news. Although, Jungkook was excited he had also voiced his concerns. He was already acting like the jealous older brother. He even asked his hyungs if the attention they paid to him would change once the baby arrived. To which they assured him nothing would change and he would always be their first baby. It didn’t take him long to forget his worry. He even began to clear space in his computer and camera for the pictures he was going to take of his nephew.
Taehyung, was a completely different story. He not only went shopping and bought a new camera (all just for baby pictures), he also began to clear space in his and Namjoon’s room so that the baby could sleep with him when he babysat. He even made room in his closet to store the outfits he was planning to buy for the baby. If it weren’t for Yoongi intervening and saying it was “too much,” he would have already bought him a Gucci onesie with matching shoes.
To say they were excited, was a complete understatement and if they knew he may have just ruined their chance at helping raise their nephew they would be very upset.
“ HYUNG!” They all screamed. Yoongi couldn’t help but smile at his crazy friends. Everything happened so fast that he didn’t realize how much he missed them. He really wished they could be with him right now. They could have at least stopped him from being such an ass to Y/N.
“When are you coming back hyung?” Asked Jungkook with a childlike curiosity. Yoongi could practically see the small pout he wore on the other end of the call.
“I’m not sure, a few days maybe. Things are kind of complicated right now.” Yoongi didn’t know how to tell his friends how uncertain things were.
“Find out! We want to see our nephew!” Hobi chimed in.
Then Tae’s deep voice came through,”Yeah! Hyung find out! I want to buy him his first Gucci onesie.” Yoongi let out a laugh. This is why I need them. Through most difficult moments they still made him smile.
“Tae, what did I say about the Gucci onesie?” Yoongi said in a playfully angry tone.
“I know hyung, but...but he would look so cute in it.” Tae whined like a kid who was just told he couldn’t have candy for dinner. Yoongi was going to reply but he was cut off by Namjoon’s voice.
“Okay guys you need to head to practice now.” Namjoon sounded like a dad calling his children. Jimin and Jungkook actually sounded like children with there disappointed whines.
“Come on hyung! We want to talk to Yoongi. We want to know about our nephew.”
“You can talk to him later Jiminie. Now go with Jin and Hobi they already left and take Tae and Kookie with you. I’ll be there in a minute.... I need to talk to Yoongi.” The boys said their goodbyes and Yoongi heard them leave the room.
“So hyung, how did things go?” There was a deafening silence as Yoongi looked for the right words.
“Well...in a word...awful.”
“Why?” Namjoon sounded concerned. Yoongi could practically see his brows frown. The way they always did when he was listening intently.
Why?!? Why?!? Maybe because your friend is a heartless asshole who never considered that the women taking care of his child could actually be a beautiful person inside and out. Or maybe because the first time he met his son he couldn’t bring myself to hold him. Or maybe because he treated his child like a business deal. Or maybe because he made you hate him.
These were all things he wanted to tell his friend but he couldn’t find the strength to say them.
Namjoon scoffed, “Was she just one of those fake fans that wanted to use the baby against you? If she is hyung, tell me and I’ll call Bang PD and the lawyers. We could—“
“No! She’s not like that. She’s kind and strong and sweet. And so smart...she knows Korean. The perfect mother. You should have seen her Joon, the baby isn’t hers but god, you can see just how much she loves him.” Yoongi could help but smile at the memory of Little Min in your arms. You were so gentle with him and so happy.
“Woah, is my hyung falling for his baby’s mom.” Namjoon said with a chuckle.
“W-what?! No! I’m just thinking maybe...maybe I judged too quickly. Little Min has everything here, including someone who is there for him 24/7. She may be young but being a mother is so natural for her. What if I can’t do that? I mean with our career at its pinnacle... Where would Little Min fit into all of this?” Yoongi asked sadly.
“Hyung, you aren’t seriously considering leaving him are you? I mean it’s going to be hard but you have us. He’s your son, he needs to be with his father not just some stranger.”
“That’s the thing Joon, we keep saying she’s a stranger but to Little Min, we are the strangers. To him she is his mother. She may have not given birth to him but she saved him. Just the thought of what could have happened to him if she wasn’t there scares me.”
“You’re right hyung, I never thought of it that way. Again, we are here for you whatever you choose to do. Do you think she’d be willing to work out a situation that would be good for the baby, her, and you?”
“W-well ummm... I maybe...might have made her hate me.” Yoongi said nervously. He knew Namjoon was about to scold him but he had to tell him what happened. Namjoon was always the voice of reason. Yoongi always figured that’s why, although he was younger, he was the group’s leader.
“Yoongi, what did you do?”
Yoongi caught up Namjoon on the events that occurred that morning and of course Namjoon was not happy.
“Are you serious? Yoongi what was the one thing Bang PD told you?! He said grow up! You can’t just act on impulse. Did you not learn anything? Look at the position you’re in now? Last year you were reckless and now you have a baby. Now because you acted immature you may lose your son. Why did you even look for him if you weren’t ready to be a father? Seriously, Yoongi I thought you had matured this year but no, you’re the same guy that doesn’t consider anyone else’s feelings, you do what you think is right, you close yourself off! Why didn’t you tell us first? We could have helped you. Damn it, Yoongi I thought you were ready to let others in!” As he yelled at Yoongi through the phone he let out all the anger and resentment he had held for an entire year.
Yes, Yoongi had changed but he still didn’t think things through and that affected those around him.
“I know.” Yoongi said quietly. He couldn’t be angry with Namjoon because all the things he said were true. There were still many things he had to work on. He was too impulsive and immature, and he knew that was not something a father should be . However, there was one thing he couldn’t agree with..he was ready to be father he just didn’t know how to do it right, yet.
“I’m sorry.” Namjoon sounded ashamed of his outburst. “Im really sorry hyung, it’s just I’m scared too. You are my family and seeing you hurting hurts me too. I consider Little Min my family too even if I haven’t met him. I want him to be happy. And I want you to be happy.”
“I know Namjoon-ah, that’s why I’m going to fix things. I don’t want to drag Little Min and Y/N into another custody battle. I’m not sure if I want to give her full custody but I do know that she needs to be in Little Min’s life.”
“See now you’re thinking like a parent. You are putting his needs before yours. I’m proud of you Yoongi.”
“Thanks Joon.” There was a quiet pause until Namjoon spoke again. Yoongi noticed the change in his voice.
“So tell me...how cute is my nephew?” Yoongi could practically see the dimpled smile on Namjoons face. He couldn’t bite back his smile either.
“Joon, have you ever seen the cutest baby in the world? Well multiply that cuteness by ten and maybe you get a fraction of how cute my Little Min is. He had the chubbiest cheeks and a cute little pout even cuter than Jimin’s pout.” Yoongi was gushing over his little man. He couldn’t believe he didn’t hold him.
“Wow, so I guess he looks like his uncle?” Namjoon said smugly.
“Yah! That’s rude. The baby is cute not handsome, yet. So, no not Jin!”
“Aish! You’re so mean! ME! I’m the cute one.” Namjoon sounded like a child.
“I’m just teasing you big baby. Of course he’s cute...he looks like his daddy. By the way your are the smart clumsy one.” Namjoon let out a laugh.
“Fine. I guess. Okay Yoongs I have to go check on my babies. Call me if you need me, Okay?”
Yoongi was left with a smile on his face after the call. Yoongs. That was what Namjoon called once their friendship had officially solidify over the years. He was still respectful toward his elder but when it was just him and Yoongi he would drop formalities.
It was something Yoongi never minded because they had been through so much together. Back when they launched their career Yoongi doubted if he could ever be a good producer or artist but Namjoon always reminded him of why he made music. That nickname was a symbol of the love and support that Namjoon gave him.
He meant what he said, he had to fix this for everyone’s sake.
You spent the entire afternoon on the phone with your lawyer and your friends from social services trying to find a way to keep Ro with you even if Yoongi fought for official custody.
The sun had set by the time you got off the phone. You hung up just on time to start Ro’s night routine. Granted he still a little young to have a schedule but you realized it would better for both of you to have a life that was as organized as possible. That way you could take care of him and take care of all you other responsibilities.
First, you spent half an hour playing, reading, and talking to him. Followed by a 20 minute bath time. He was dressed and fed. Finally, he was put to bed.
Once he was asleep you organized the house, did homework, and payed bills. It wasn’t your typical college student life but you couldn’t complain, you were happy.
However, tonight things seemed off with Ro. Your usually smiling little man wouldn’t stop crying. During bath time you checked his body for any signs of injuries but he was fine. You assumed it was colic pain so fed him and gave him his drops to ease the pain. He slept for about an hour but woke up on most blood curdling cries you had ever heard.
You check his temperature and it had spiked. You tried not freak out because you had read enough baby books to know that sometimes things like this happened with young babies, you just had to monitor this fever.
After about half an hour the crying wouldn’t stop. You were so scared what if something was really wrong, his fever was only getting worse.
You couldn’t just wait it out anymore you had to do something. So, you grabbed your things and Ro and started heading to the hospital. Just as you were about to leave you got a call.
He was the last person you wanted to talk to right now but you had to pick up.
“Hello?” You said over the baby cries.
“Y/N? Is everything okay?” He asked in a way that seemed almost genuinely worried.
“Look, Yoongi I can’t talk right you now. Not that you would care but the baby is sick. If there is anything you need to say talk to me law—“
“I’m coming to get you.” And he hung up.
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