I cannot find my current emotional support fountain pen. The one I am currently using when I want to write fan fiction. I cannot write without it because I am emotionally unbalanced by its absence and can only focus on the fact that though I am writing, the pen I am currently using is NOT my current emotional support fountain pen.
I think I am going to have to face the mess that is the shelves next to my desk. Either I tidy it or I rummage through it with the sole objective to finding the pen without tidying, thereby creating more mess.
But then, if I find the pen, i likely wont be able to write as I’ll focus on the fact that the mess exists, however much I’ll try to ignore it.
So. I think I have to fix the mess.
I don’t even know if the fountain pen is there. It’s just my best guess.