@buckleytm said: ❝ you don’t understand . ❞
ask box clean out !!
Silence falls over him for a moment, eyes cast downwards. He hadn’t meant to upset her, but leave it to Steve Harrington to be the one that fucks everything up. Still, her words hurt more than she probably realized. Sure, based on everything he’d shown her up to this point, of course she wouldn’t know that he understood a little more than she thought -- but it was different for boys. It was so much different for boys to like boys, or at least -- that’s how it seemed.
He took a deep breath, still not completely looking at her. He didn’t know how else to tell her that he knew what is was like without completely outing himself, so he figured this would be the day he’d lay all of his stupid fucking feelings bare.
“ Listen, I didn’t want to tell you this, and like -- I know that’s stupid, because you’ve told me but still -- “ another deep breath, bracing himself for the words that he had been avoiding saying for too long now. “ I understand a little bit more than you think, and that’s because I like guys too. “
He’s quiet then, restlessly fidgeting with the bow on his stupid sailor outfit. He regretted even saying anything, regretted even thinking that mentioning it would be a good idea. He felt shame and disgust for himself, because he knew what he felt was wrong -- it was all he had ever been taught. “ Look -- I’m sorry I even brought it up.. “ His words come out shakier than he meant them too, glancing up towards Robin for only a second. “ But, I do understand, Robin. I understand more than I think you’ll ever realize.. “