Feb 14
“im gonna be productive today”
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“im gonna be productive today”
NEW BLOG: @flubbaa
bello!! i’m buck and i’m 16
im mlm and ftm, i speak french and portuguese as well
(i’m polish and brazilian)
some tuff stuff i like:
- literally any music (fav artists: fakemink, johnny cash, descendants, death grips, dead calm, french police, los crudos, neotokyo police, neutral milk hotel, radiohead, panchiko, NIN, the teenagers) to name a few
- anime’s: evangelion, berserk, death note, cowboy bebop, given, beck, monster, the summer hikaru died, girls last tour
- i love history especially anything to do with mesoamerica (aztecs mainly), SPQR/rome, and US history
- i love RDR2 (fav characters are javier escuella and eagle flies)
- favorite shows: mr robot, you, black mirror, handmaids tale
- favorite movies: brokeback mountain, we’re all going to the worlds fair, the sound of metal, vanilla sky, superman
other stuff!
* i’m a boxer and like climbing as well
* i read a lot so im good with book recommendations
* i love debating people, please don’t be scared to go into my asks or dms
train upper body for strength and endurance ❌
train upper body to lift huzzband and look cool ✅
i wonder how many people think i’m super awesome and cool and not just a blue haired chud
which of these for a new pfp or should i keep the one i have 🥹✌️
how tf am i stressing and panicking over pens and pencil cases rn im for some reason scared of losing all my pens and never being able to use them and just write alphabets over and over sorry i had to say ts
i’ve noticed that on this blog i haven’t posted much related to my own experiences as a transgender man and id like to talk about my experience with internalized transphobia.
i think not a lot of people recognize that this is sometimes a part for some people in order to come through the full circle of self acceptance.
i had struggled with feelings of not fitting in amongst my peers since during this time i was in middle school and had few friends to go to. on top of this i was involved in school volleyball amongst cis boys, this added another layer of stress. i had always felt outcasted and i’d do everything i could to try and blend in amongst the other players. one day id had enough of rude comments my “friends” at the time would make and the way my teammates treated me. i cried and sobbed, went to SH and removed every form of things in my room and online that hinted i might be trans. this included deleting social media profiles, throwing out objects and burning a trans flag i had in my room. i was filled with hatred for myself, which i would instead reflect onto other trans people. i was hateful and depressed. my only close friend at the time didn’t recognize that i was going through something terribly wrong and ended up dropping me. i was completely destroyed. i tried to remain as stealth as possible. this didn’t always workout as that summer i was trying out for a high ranked volleyball team within my city. someone from the team knew i was trans because someone from my school told them. while i was in the bathroom i was attacked and assaulted by three of these players. i ended up chipping and losing a tooth while breaking my nose due to being punched and thrown into a sink. this experience shattered me further and made me even more uncomfortable with myself. after two years of this i had finally learned to full accept myself during my late months of freshman year. to this day i struggle with self acceptance but i do not reflect these feelings into hate anymore.
i finally finished mononoke 🥹✌️