Summary: story where their love is forbidden, lies and evil are standing between them
Is their love strong enough to keep them together?
Orare they going to fall into the darkness and never look back.
Note ✎𓂃: this story contains a lot of dark topics, please
read the warnings carefully before reading any further!
Warning ☠︎︎: MDNI 18+/lies/cheating/scheming/ bad parenting/alcohol/ depression/ manipulation/sickness/ injuries/cursing/ enemies to lovers then back to enemies/ smut!/ physical abuse/mental abuse/grieving/ cheating!/ reader is not perfect and I wanted to write them as humanly a possible/ fighting/crying/fluff/angst a lot of angst!/au/ religious guilt/ pregnancy/ miscarriage...
“You missed the last session, Mr.barnes. Was it an attempt to avoid replying to that question again ?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about Dr.Christina.”
He held her gaze unyielding and unwavering, trying to convince both her and himself that he’s telling the truth.
“Your wife, you barely talk about her.”
She said it as an observation, not a question.
“Do you wish we change the subject slightly and focus on this today ? “
His eyes drifted downward and to the circular band of metal worn on his finger.
Bucky didn’t reply to her question.
“Were they similar in a way ?”
“No. They’re complete opposites”
That what people used to describe you and your sister.
Yet somehow, those differences had never driven you apart. If anything, they were what made your bond feel so effortless so genuine, it felt real.
You were the witty quick with a response child, she was the blushing who shifted awkwardly under too much attention.
Your parents always knew the difference between the two of you, could easily tell you apart.
Lenny was the role model child, with good grades and shy personality, every teacher’s favourite. humble dreams quick to please anyone and always afraid of a little confrontation.
While you were the younger sister, 3 years younger exactly.
“You’re gonna fall, princess” Lenny called in a caring yet playful tone as she gazed at you wobbling around the house wearing your mom’s heels, preening and babbling about practicing for fashion week in Paris
you were full of surprises and wild dreams that your parents always told you to dip your toes in cold water to wake up.
You always wondered why your dreams scared them more than they scared you.
you’re standing in front of your childhood home, your parent’s house.
The old house was a Time Machine, the porch creaking under your feet like a forgotten memory.
The passing breeze, consoled you carrying away the sadness of the nostalgia.
After you gathered the courage and pressed the ring bell, a shaky breath left your lips.
hearing the rigged old ring, felt familiar and comforting in a way.
You could hear the sound of the footsteps as they came closer, your heart pounded in your chest with both anticipation and fear maybe ?
Before she even opened the door, you knew its was Lenny, your darling sister.
Maybe it was from the rhythm of her footsteps that you long ago leaned to memorise.
The door opened slowly, revealing her silhouette, her soft comforting scent greeted you first, second were her loving eyes.
“You’re finally home” she beamed, her short locks fell over her shoulders and a shy small graced her face.
You mirrored her expression, staring at her with eyes that held nothing but the emotions of longing and love.
After the emotional moment was over, you made your way through the house pulling your suitcase with you as you drank in the sight of your house that you left behind years ago.
That was two days ago, when you came back from college.
Having finished fashion school and left with no job.
because yes fashion school was all rainbows and butterflies but not being a rich nepo-baby was difficult.
Because fashion houses cared about who you know more than your talents.
Left with no apartment because of the high rent, living in New York sure massacred your pockets especially when your spare money was spent on the fifths pair of heels and vogue magazine’s collection.
It wasn’t your fault you were influenced by Carrie Bradshaw and her famous quote “I would buy vogue instead of dinner, I just felt it fed me more”
And you couldn’t agree more.
You decided to accept the offer of your dad and come back home.
Not like you had the choice.
You knew from the tone of your dad’s voice that he was judging you, the kind “I Told you, didn’t I ?”
He always pushed you to do something meaningful, something that could get you a nice pay, like your sister.
He was a firm believer of doing things to survive and not live.
But being stuck in office and breaking your neck and back on something that you knew you didn’t love nor want, was never in your plan.
“I could feel you looming over my door lenny” you chuckled, turning the page of the magazine that you were reading on your bed, while blowing on your freshly painted red toenails.
You swear you heard her gasp, and that made you chuckle harder.
Somethings just don’t change.
And she did, she looked at you with a timid expression on her face, picking on the skin of her fingers as she squirmed on her feet.
Eyeing her suspiciously as she settled on your bed, next to you.
“Okay, who do I need to kill ? Is it that old man george again ?I swear if he didn’t move his car again from the garage this tim-“
“No God no ! Nono it’s not George”
You narrowed your eyes at her and titled your head urging her to speak more.
“Okay so spill the beans what is it ?”
“Have you ever been to a Galla event in manhattan?”
Yeah you’ve been at a gala before.
since a gala is like the adult version of your childhood fairytale, you always believed you’ll have with your Prince Charming.
And in manhattan? God you still had gossip girl paused in your laptop laying on your bed behind you.
“Um no, I wish though why ?”
“So the person I need to kill is from Manhattan and in a Galla ?”
“No! You don’t need to kill anybody Jesus Christ girl”
“So what is it! It’s sound fishy why are you asking about that anyway?” You asked, reverting your eyes back to the magazine.
“It’s just- do you remember my boyfriend that I talked about…?“ Lenny trailed off, her eyes never meeting yours.
“Oh yeah the one from college ? what about him, bucket or Buck was it ?” you titled your head and hummed.
“Bucky— he um just invited me to this event that his parent are holding in the upper east side at the east gala and I feel uneasy going there alone, you know ? “ Lenny explained and plopped down fully on your bed, groaning and hiding her face in the bedsheets.
You couldn’t help but smile at her, god she was always anxious about something.
“Oh yeah no I totally get you, does his surroundings make uncomfortable?”
She shook and lifted her head, then stared at you and muttered “Actually no, they’re all so nice especially his friends. It’s just…I never met his parents and i was thinking that maybe you could, you know…join me…?” Lenny trailed off again, not knowing what reaction to expect and afraid of rejection.
“I don’t know Lenny…you know that I love these things but isn’t it going to be awkward? You know tagging your little sister along with you to a date with your boyfriend” you hesitated, clearly not wanting to be a bother to anyone, or worse being an inconvenience.
“He’s sending someone to pick us up! he’s the one who actually proposed to me to bring someone as my plus one” She sighed before continuing “you know I’ve never been good at those things like makeup and hair and stuff….and I just want to look presentable”
“Then” you closed the magazine and looked her dead in the eye before continuing “Hell fucking yeah”
From the back seat where you’re seated beside your sister, you kept gazing at the window, your mind drifting back and forth trying to tone down the excitement you were feeling.
Because yes you’ve dreamt of going to a Galla ton of times.
The financial situation you were born in wasn’t the best, after your mother’s leaving, you only 4 and your sister 7 and left your dad with his aching heart.
You knew your mother’s absence affected him, she was the spirit he had and with her leaving and depression hitting him hard, the project for work your father long worked on and swore it was going to be his financial success was now abandoned and discarded by his boss for the lack off work from your father.
So things like this felt unreal for you, especially when you always fantasised of luxury and pictured living your princess dream.
Your eyes slowly trailed over your sister’s body where she hunched over the window her hands on her lap and her fingers picking the skin of her cuticles.
She always had this habit whenever she was feeling anxious about something.
Your expression softened and you slowly put your hands over hers in attempt to ease her anxiety and comfort.
Lenny looked at you with a smile between her lips and eventually calmed down as she held your hand.
The car stopped in front of a rather ridiculously chic hotel, and you looked over at the chauffeur.
your eyebrows shouted to roof.
are we staying in this hotel ?
“Mr.barnes is inside waiting for you miss Lenny, he should be at the lounge”
You both thanked him before sliding off the car and making your way inside the hotel, while he took your luggage inside.
“Oh my god…do I look okay ? I think I forgot your pills inside my other bag—“ Lenny turned around and rambled over as anxiety from earlier crept back.
“Hey relax, you look fine and no you didn’t, I saw you put at least two bottles of it inside your suitcase honey and besides—“
you felt something vibrating in your pocket, your phone was ringing.
“Lenny you can go inside, I have to get that” gesturing to the ringing phone “I’ll follow up “
“Okay don’t take long !” She chirped before walking inside in a nervous manner while her eyes roamed over the big hotel.
A small breath left your lips, finger pressing to accept the call after realising it was your friend from college.
“No, no I get that— I’m just away for I don’t know maybe a night I’ll be back in the morning— yeah“ you circled on your spot, kicking the dust with your heels, lowering your head to straighten your jeans.
“Oh yeah of course I would love too—“
You yelped loudly and backed off shocked as you started at the big wet dark brown patch on your shirt.
Some people stopped in their track and stared at you while others kept walking but you could feel their eyes still on you as they walked away.
someone just spilled their coffee all over you !
“You fucking— Are you blind you stupid dumbass !” You hissed, anger quickly bubbling up in your chest and stiffed in your place, your body rigid.
Great now you’re going back inside looking crazy and smelling of strong coffee, you felt tears of frustration and shame welling up in your eyes, as you avoided the looks other passers by were giving you.
Your eyes red and watery shot up to see who’s this idiot that just barged into your back and…
Okay wow. He does not look like an idiot.
his gorgeous ice blue eyes wide stared down at you with surprise, chestnut brown hair with dark blond reflections falling over his sharp cheekbones that were now slightly red from embarrassment.
Wow-is this prince Eric ?
“I’m sorry- did you just ? Did you just call me a stupid dumbass?!” His eyebrows drew together and his forehead frowned as he held his chin higher.
And that Quickly pulled you into reality. oh great now he’s screaming at you.
“Oh I’m sorry, I think there’s another dumbass who just splashed his coffee all over me now that look just like you ? Stupid and arrogant” You scoffed, flipping your fingers with irritation building up while you looked up to the sky to try and swallow the tears that threatened to spill over.
now taking in your appearance, you couldn’t go back with mascara running down your face and clothes all wet and dirty with coffee.
now you have to meet your sister’s boyfriend all dirty and fuming.
Lenny brought you with her in attempt to not embarrass herself, but it looked like you were the one who’s going to do that for her.
“For your information you were the one walking with your head down like a complete degenerate “ he scoffed back, clicking his tongue, his hands now brushing invisible dust from his sleeve.
“Oh wow hah—“ you laughed in disbelief and shock.
who was this cocky bastard dressed in an Armani suit think he is !
You opened your mouth to say something before he rudely interrupted you.
“Excuse me, I have to go because I actually have something to do, not walk around with my head down like a mad woman”
“Yeah to what ? TO run into other people like a big brute ?!” you pointed to his face, getting closer as you scowled.
You knew you were making a big scene in public.
But you didn’t give a fuck at this point.
He looked at you stunned and offended, he opened his mouth to say something but this time you interrupted with your hand over his face to stop him.
“Ugh, spoiled little boys these days” you said scoffing dramatically before stepping away from him, leaving him there stunned and words still in his tongue surrounded by the stares of passers by, before entering the hotel angrily.
The stranger stood there on his spot, his hands balled into his fists before scoffing like you did and turned his back entering his car.
“Oh my goodness, what happened to you ?” Lenny gasped as she looked at you drenched in coffee.
Thank god she was standing alone.
“Please can I explain inside the room ? I just want to shower I feel so sticky”
Standing in front the suite, the butler beside you as he opened the door for you and stepped away, allowing you to step inside while he quickly escorted your luggage inside.
“wow…damn” you mutter looking over the hotel room, clearly this room cost more money than you have in your bank account.
“Oh god…this is too much…” Lenny sighed in embarrassment, before walking to the huge window overlooking the city.
“Thank goodness. I do deserve this after that fuck- I need to shower” you stopped yourself before you got angry again, pivoting towards the bathroom.
“So what happened exactly ?” Lenny questioned, as she began to unpack.
“A dumbass barged into me with coffee on his hands”you explained, while taking off your clothes off, turning the water on.
“Thank god your boyfriend left, or else I would be so embarrassed to meet him for the first time smelling like strong coffe and sticky”
“Oh yeah, thank god he had that meeting huh ?” She smiled to herself.
“Okay, now smack your lips together” you muttered to your sister, your body bent toward her as you applied her lipstick on her lips.
“God, sometimes i feel like you’re the big sister not me” she mumbled, doing exactly what you told her, smacking her lips together.
You chuckled before handing her the mirror, “so what do you think ?”
“Jesus….is that me ?” She laughed in disbelief, running her fingers through her skin softly.
“Yes and you look so good ! and you feel good “ you shook her shoulders as she laughed harder, before the sound of her phone buzzing cut into the moment.
“Wait that’s Bucky, he’s calling” she mutter before accepting the call.
“Hi baby, yeah what- you’re? You’re downstairs ? No I’m ready but-“ she looked over to as you were still in your silk robe and rollers still in your hair.
Oh he’s already here to pick her up.
And you were not even near being ready.
You quickly understood the situation and just mouthed to her that it’s fine you’ll just grab a cap and follow her after.
“Okay- yeah I’m heading downstairs “ she replied before ending the call and turning over to you.
“Are you sure ? I could tell him to wait a little until you’re ready” Lenny looked over you, you could hear the guilt in her voice.
“Hey Nono, it’s okay I still haven’t figured out if I go with the silk blue scarf or the pink one—you can go with your boyfriend and I’ll come after I finish just send me the location “ you smile at her, hurrying her out the door. “Hey don’t overthink anything okay ? Just breath and have a good time I love u”
Looking at the place after arriving, the only thing that you were thinking about is how intimidating the whole thing was, it truly was another world.
A world that you always felt like you belonged in.
a shaky breath left your lips as you approached the gigantic door to enter, you already called your sister telling her you arrived and she said to meet her near the buffet.
this buffet is actually impressive and way too long, good thing you ate a quick MacDonald before coming or else you’d dived right into it—
You eyes travelled through the massive floor, you could smell the expensive lifestyle dancing through the air, you could see and practically taste it.
the attire of the people present made you feel so small but at least you knew how to sew.
But still no sign of Lenny.
“god, where are you Lenny” you sighed pulling your phone from your purse to call her again, your eyes still searching for her through the whole room.
When suddenly your eyes stopped on a familiar ice blue eyes that were staring right at you, his brows rose when your eyes met, his lips twitched, he was talking to two people then you watched as he excused himself and made his way to you.
You felt your whole body freeze.
Is he going to make scene here and now ?
God is he going to embarrass you in front of your sister boyfriend that you still haven’t met ?
“You !” He exclaimed, now face to face with you. “What are you doing here huh ?” Talking in a quiet yet abrasive tone.
“Me? What are you doing here ! Are you stalking me ?“ you righted back, still lowering your tone so you wouldn’t make scene.
“Hah! What- stalking who ?” He laughed in disbelief “you’re the one stalking me, what you came here to bump on other people to or scream at them too ?”
“Oh my god- you know what you little shit—“
The voice of Lenny cut through the tension, slowly you breathed and turned to your sister trying to ignore the annoying presence behind you.
“Lenny hey! I was searching for you “
Lenny smiled shyly and walked closer to you, her eyes drifting between you and the tall handso—
“I’m sorry I was in the restroom, I see you’ve met my boyfriend”
“Bucky, this is my little sister y/n ! Y/n that my lovely boyfriend Bucky” Lenny declared as she made her way to him, wrapping her arms around his, a small smile on her face.
She stilled in her place and an awkward smile replaced at her face while she tried to read into what’s happening “Um ? Is everything alright?”
Your eyes were so wide you felt they were going to slip from your skull, and the prince Eric— Bucky looked as shocked as you were.
you were already started fuming again, ready to tell on him about what he did and that he was the arrogant asshole who spilled coffee all over you that morning and called you crazy and a degenerate.
you suddenly paused, breathing hard and unstable, took a moment to look at your sister.
She looked so beautiful and elegant, you knew she was excited and already anxious about this.
You can’t ruin this for her.
“I- uh” you swallowed whatever dignity you had left and with a tight smile you turned to him and lifted your hands in an attempt to shake his hand.
“Pleasure to meet you, Bucky” you faked a smile, hoping he wouldn’t be an actual asshole and embarrass you even more, leaving your hand hanging.
after a suspicious look, bucky mirrored your fake smile.
“The pleasure’s all mine” he shook your hand and you tightened the grip and he did the same, a faux smile on both of your faces while cussing each other internally.
Lenny who’s been looking at the both of with uncertainty, but before she could utter a single word you pulled your hand from his fast borderline impolite and turned to her,
“Excuse me, I need a moment. I’ll be back Lenny okay ?” You smiled and hurried off before she can even reply.
You just needed to walk away
Needed to breathe for a minute.
After entering the restroom, You pressed a hand to the cold expensive looking marble counter for a moment, steadying yourself.
your head was throbbing, your body was shaking slightly.
You opened your purse, popping the tablet into your mouth and swallowed it painfully.
“Okay..ok calm down, your sister’s boyfriend is the same guy you just called a stupid dumbass this morning” frustrated, you stared at the mirror, wanting nothing but to pull your hair off and scream on top of your lungs.
but stoped when a older woman entered suddenly.
A small polite smile made it way to your face instead when your eyes met in the mirror.
“Sweet mother of pearl, did it have to happen now…” she whispered to herself,frustration written all over her face, while clutching her dress.
You were quickly pulled of your thoughts and couldn’t help but pry, glancing at the popped button at her back.
It looked like a few buttons gave up on her.
“Excuse ma’am? I think I can help with that…” you proposed, manicured nails pointing at the loose buttons.
“Oh are you sure ? You would really save me if you did”
pulling a small sewing kit from your purse.
You couldn’t really tell her that you kept that in case your dress decided to give up on you in public because of it quality.
“don’t worry ma’am, I’m always prepared” a small chuckle left your lips as your approach her.
Her expression was a mix of both relief and suprise
“These things tend to happen pretty often, always keep these with me ” you explained as you took the fabric in your hand “Christian Dior fall 2016 ?”
“It’s is, yes ! “ the older lady looked at you with a genuine expression watching you sew back the button with gentle hands and focused eyes.
“It’s look very lovely on you ma’am “ you complimented as you continued to sew the buttons back.
“I can say the same about your dress darling, where did you get it if I may ask ?”
“Oh, actually I made it “ you gave her a sheepish smile as she started at you stunned.
“Then you’re very talented my dear”
you thanked her, feeling your cheeks heating up by her compliments.
It felt nice seeing other people recognise your work.
You wish others would too.
“There done ma’am” you finally spoke, petting her dress down.
“I can‘t thank you enough my dear..” she looked at you with her gorgeous blue eyes, they reminded you of a certain someone.
“Oh it’s nothing really” you insisted, pulling back the needle and dropping it back in your purse.
You muttered a polite goodbye before slipping off the restroom.
Feeling a little bit better now after helping that sweet lady,
okay now don’t be a coward and start to search for your sister you reminded yourself again.
When you’re quickly pulled from your thoughts when you collapsed softly into someone chest.
“It’s has to intentional now”
Oh you knew this annoying voice
You close your eyes and breathed slowly through your nose in attempt to calm your nerves.
you can do this, for Lenny.
“Did you have to stalk me here too ?” Bucky scoffed in an arrogant manner and looked you up and down.
“I didn’t follow you, I came here with my sister, you should know that since you’re the one who told her to bring someone as her plus one” you explained calmly, trying hard to not roll your eyes at him and keep your cool.
“Right about Lenny, Let me tell you that, I really like her okay? So I hope you won’t be a problem in our relationship” bucky said, rolling his eyes and running his fingers through his hair fixing it.
“A problem ? Mister you’re the one who keeps bumping into me without even saying sorry like an arrogant shit “ you sneered, your plans to be calm and collected are out the window now.
“It’s not like I wanted to run into you again, I’m searching for my mom, And suspiciously you’re here too”
“Ah there you are, James ! “
The lovely lady from the restroom was his mother ?
Slowly turning to her, you gave her the same smile from earlier.
And when she saw you, her smile became wider.
“Oh ! I was coming over so you could introduce us, but I think I already met her ! “
She chuckled, reaching to hold your hands in her own.
“What- what are you talking about mom ? “ Bucky looked at his mom visibly confused, and you kept looking back at him then at her also confused.
“Your girlfriend! You said you were bringing her tonight ? And we already met in the restroom. She helped me with this dress, such a sweetheart!” She exclaimed, bringing her hand up your cheek to affectionately squeeze it.
“Oh no no” you both hurriedly said in unison.
Her smile slowly faded as she looked between the two of you clearly confused and lost.
“No mom, my girlfriend is—“ Bucky looked around the room, seeing Lenny timidly approaching the two of you.
“This is my girlfriend, Lenny” he looped his hand around her waist bringing her closer.
Lenny quickly became frustrated.
you instantly knew the second her hand started fidgeting and the way her cheeks warmed up.
“Oh ! My bad I’m really sorry “ she gasped and apologised, softly pulling her hands away her face wearing an apologising expression.
“It’s nice to meet you Mrs.barnes “ Lenny introduced herself, extending her arms to shake her hand politely.
“Call me winni, dear” she shook her hand, her lip turning into an affectionate smile as she turned to look at you.
“This is my sister, y/n” Lenny pointed out.
“We’ve already met, it’s nice to meet you mrs.barnes “
Guzzling the glass of champagne, your gaze flickered around the ballroom.
Checking in your sister from time to time, and feeling the warmth of her smile across the room is worth all the trouble you went through today.
“You should try the mini burgers they are to die for” a sudden feminine voice chimed in.
Glancing at your side, you stared at the red head with her hand extended, gesturing to the butler beside you.
Her pale skin glowed under the light of the ballroom, her pouty red lips forming a polite yet confident smile, she looked absolutely gorgeous, she was wrapped in blue, a classic Versace from fall 2006.
You know it because it been sitting on your Wishlist for years.
Without a word you took the burger from the butler plate, a soft thank you leaving your lips.
“I’m Natasha, Lenny’s friend” she then expended her hand confidently, her manners were so elegant.
The anxiety you were feeling quickly slipped away as you introduced yourself back.
“I wish they introduced us before running off like jack and rose”
You snickered at that, and peered at them again. This time they were giggling and murmuring in each other’s ears.
“Let’s hope the boat doesn’t sink this time, or should I say this place doesn’t fall over our head ?” A heartfelt laugh rose from Natasha as she Tipped her head back.
“We’re sitting not far away, join us ?”
Your eyes drifted back to Lenny, hesitating to leave her alone. But Natasha already took your hand and urged you to follow her.
Following behind her, as you waltzed through the ballroom, feeling the palm of your hands sweating already.
When she carefully stopped in front of a table, where they were sitting two gentleman’s and an another woman.
They were chatting and didn’t pay attention to the both of you, when Natasha cleared her throat, capturing their attentions.
Natasha introduced you to them, first was the blond guy with piercing blue eyes and incredible hero physique, Steve Roger’s.
Who was shy and polite quick to blush when your eyes met he then averted his eyes.
Next was Sam, he was extremely charming right off the bat, someone that could pull you in just from their charisma and humour and shared the same hero physique as Steve.
Then another red head, wanda that was equally as gorgeous and beautiful.
After the introduction was over, discussions began to flow.
It’s was so easy to talk to them, you didn’t feel out of place like you thought you would.
“So, did you also study politics?” Sam suddenly asked while stealing yet another mini burger from Steve’s plate.
“Actually, no I studied at parsons school of design in New York” you replied, sipping on your glass.
“No way, you’re a fashion student?” Wanda leaned forward, clearly invested.
“Yes I’m, it’s always been a passion of mine. I was never the type to study politics or economics to be honest“
“I mean it’s kind of obvious” Bucky suddenly appeared with Lenny on his arm, a smirk on his face as he pulled the chair for her to sit, then his.
Ugh, not this asshole again.
“Mhm, and what did you study Mr.barnes ?” You replied irritation showing in your tone.
“Political science, actually that’s where I met Lenny” he said, quickly pressing a kiss to her cheek.
Earning a small blush from her.
“Yeah, it’s was that or military law” Steve chimed in, and you nodded trying to swallow a petty joke.
“Excuse me, I’ll just answer this” Lenny said pointing to her buzzing phone” and come back quickly”
After a few moment passed, Lenny still didn’t come back and you grew to be worried so you excused yourself and made your way after her.
Spotting her outside leaning next to wall, still talking on the phone.
You couldn’t make out clearly what she was saying.
her expression looked worried and she was biting her nails again.
You approached her slowly and started to hear her more a little more clearly now.
“No dad— I get it, I’m…no no it’s fine—I’m trying, I’m really trying I promise”
You muttered a soft “Lenny” as you touched her shoulder.
Did something happen to dad ?
She froze a second and paled when she felt your fingertips on her shoulders, muttering a quick “talk to you later dad” before she whirled around.
“Is everything okay? Was it dad ?”
“yes! everything fine, He’s just checking on us. You know how dad is “
You eyed her suspiciously clearly not believing a word she said, then lifted your eyebrows studying her expression.
she just faltered ahead avoiding the conversation, avoiding your eyes.
“let’s get back inside, we don’t want to worry them”