Sep 30, 2024
There are things about my struggles with singleness i will gladly prattle on about on this web site in post after post and i Have, certainly;
but there are parts of the struggle I have just a damn hard time posting about despite really reeeeaallly needing to get out so i can maybe go focus on something else for a bit
And I mean this applies to more than just my (really uneventful but somehow just as consuming and complicated) dating life, but right now that's what i'm pacing around my apartment muttering about when i should be making sure my dinner doesn't burn and having my dishes done. So.
#monster noises#and this is usually where is would talk about the thing i said I couldn't talk about in the tags#cause that's a sneaky little trick i like to play on myself to get the feelings out#but i've#1) got that aforementioned dinner going#and 2) part of the problem here isn't just my confidence in expressing what i need to express#but the fact i have an audience#(which is usually the reason i post my feelings on tumblr in the first place)#and cannot control whether or certain... partssss of my audience see my possssssts#which poses.. Issues and causes Nervousness#so i opt to refrain to my own detriment#and you might be saying#'oh well then bartholomew you should just talk one on one to a trusted friend'#and you'd be correct that would probably be better than disemboweling myself for the burning gaze of the internet on the regular#but whooooo has the time or energy to have fucking Conversation?#a back and forth?#a Dialouge??????#a Chit and or Chat????????????#not Me that's for sure#so to the web my guts shall spill#except in this one case where i simply don't feel confident that i could hit that post button
