Dear KMD
I just don’t get it. How could you possibly act like 4 and a half years had never happened? How could you possibly live your life without feeling any sadness or regret or hurt from losing me? How could you continue to walk each step, each day, knowing that you’ve just lost someone who had tried to give you the world, who would walk through hell and back just to bring a smile to your face? How are you able to pretend like I meant absolutely nothing to you when you still mean so much to me?
I still think about you. I still wonder about you. I still miss you. And I still think about the cruel things, the harsh actions you’ve committed against me. I still think about the disappointment and hurt every time you disregard me. I still wonder whether I’ve ever mattered to you at all. I wonder whether I ever did or was it all just a lie.
Either way, it didn’t change the way you made me feel. I still felt so much for you.
It’s possible to love someone who treated you like shit, and you’re a perfect example of that.
Maybe you just don’t know any better. Maybe you’re just too young. Even though I still care, I still wish it hurt to lose me like it hurt to lose you. But I’ll never know and seeing how you’ve been lately, I know you don’t care and you don’t miss me and that you’re happy without me.
But eventually I’ll be over you and it won’t hurt anymore.
Whatever you’re doing, I hope you’re happy and you won’t fuck the next girl over. 😔😔😔