We already knew Scissor had violated Paper’s boundaries, (somewhat) forcefully manipulated her into working for him and also aggressively insulted/combated her morals.. phew.. but to add to that now, we find that Scissor is not actually a robot. He isn’t in the position he claims to be. It makes him that much more of a hypocrite, really. But, he is still defending the actual person’s rights he does genuinely care about, which is Cash.. who is unable to be in the position to call people out on their opinions on robots.. and who has completely agreed to let Scissor pretend to be her all in the quest to free herself and memories from the humans since Leadman has gone somewhat comatose.. So, in any case, there are many complicated layers of what is lies and what is truth. How does scissor use lies for his quest of truth, and how does the present established truth (such as, robots are not alive) hold back progress. All the while, some issues never go away. AKA, Transness is still disputed as being a legitimate thing, even in a world of shapeshifting monster people. Paper struggles to be seen as a specific binary gender where her species is often open to debate for not biologically adhering to established connotations of what is male and female. Hekaton species is.. pretty awful in terms of determining gender as being WHATEVER your eyes are. They also tend to judge the bodies, that they should reflect what they determine to be “the human equivalent” of what a male or female body should look like.. so. In this case, Knife is certainly a confusing case for not only being a Transman (what, why would anyone want to do that!!1 screams almost every hekaton YOU ARE FORFITTING YOUR SPECIAL CARD oh wait you cant even lay eggs? nvm) and then generally preferring to keep his boobs. And yeah, that was a difficult thing for Spoon to get around to understand at first, but once it clicked with him it was a very freeing experience-- not only for himself, but he was able to spread to others.. like Cash!This has gotten far away from the dynamic between Paper/Scissor but like....as u can see its difficult to determine who the fuck Scissor is, because.. he is Spoon, but he is -- Spoon avoiding being himself. He is embodying an idea or purpose of something else. Its the only way he can feel he can survive at this point by, sacrificing all his real feelings about his life and leaping into the skin and shoes of someone else he cares about, so he can do something good and helpful to them. That is how he finds he can keep going after this loss of his loved one. Cash doesn’t.. completely agree with these choices. But, It is what Scissor wants. And she did say she would do anything for him. And in this situation, she is getting a huge amount of help and support shes always desperately needed too, so, its a benefit for her as well. It still doesn’t make it the easiest thing to watch. It kind of seems like Scissor is progressively killing himself by destroying his hekaton self completely. He wants to believe he’s a robot instead. Who can turn off emotions, bottle memories and keep going as planned. In a way, that ‘perception’ of what it takes to be a robot kind of feels.. insulting. Like, you can be a cyborg and wear my skin and literally fight for my rights but you cannot actually become me, or understand what it is to be me. Of course, Spoon knows he’s doing this, He apologizes (profusely) well, tries to, he brings up how bad he is at apologizing, the memories flood back of his mistakes, he remembers the last words he got to say to knife, how he’ll never see him again, he starts to unravel, it all gets dark again. Cash.. lets it slide for the sake of her friend, Its far more important he live.. somewhat delusionally, somewhat insultingly, instead of not living at all. He is in so much pain, its wounds are fresh unlike hers. She knows that pain and she knows that she has her own.. imperfect coping mechanisms that she uses to bury her true feelings. Which are those again? She has to find them. Its not a perfect situation by any means. But they are surviving anyway. And with scissor the way he is, Cash is able to reflect on her own issues. She wants to be able to help her loved ones, but she realizes that to do that she also has to help herself. So she is finding the patience, the understanding and forgiveness of all these things when others can’t do that. She is unsure if she will ever have the answers she needs but she is going to pursue them as fearlessly as she can, for the sake of her loved ones.Anyway. Onto paper! FinallyScissor likes Paper. He thinks she’s fun and he likes how mean and nasty she can be. He likes that shes judgmental, its fun to play with people like that. He likes how she reacts to things in a violent way but also, obviously, has a big sentimental side that shes trying hard to conceal (But isn’t able to at all.) He is obviously preying on her because she’s in a vulnerable position and he knows it wont be long before someone else does. But, to gain the trust of a worm is a very good thing to have. He knows how loyal they are, that can be useful in situations. It also helps that paper is a little.. Tunnel visioned, like most hydragora worms tend to be. It makes it easy to sneak past their blind spots and confuse them. Scissor kind of does circles around Paper... Its rock he’s more worried about. Rock is a robotics expert........he might have already seen signs that Scissor might not be a Robot.Paper is fucking terrified of Scissor and wants to shoot him into outer space, but then thinks, oh god can robots survive in outer space? fuck me, they totally can. I fucking hate robots. What the fuck did i do to deserve this creepy green asshole fucking with my life. What do i have to do to get rid of him. Oh my god I hate this so much even if he might be my only chance to getting my poor sweet Helix out of prison. I fucking hate everything.So in the end, their relationship is basically, Scissor is manipulating Paper, but Paper is trying her best to figure out how she can manipulate him instead because she DOES want things from Scissor. However, she is too scared and doesnt have the right tools avaliable to do this successfully, so shes kind of cornered. She finds this exceptionally annoying because she hates being cornered. It is not in her nature to accept those sorts of things. She only reserves subservience to those she loves dearly (Like Crimson, rest in peace) not to asshole strangers that threaten and berate her. SHE CANT EVEN PUNCH HIS FACE N HAVE THE SATISFACTION OF SEEING HIM BLEED iTs so annoying. I am eating lunch and I forgot what else I wanted to write, I am too lazy to proofread so enjoy this collection of my thoughts. Goodbyemy after thought as im about to publish: “Talk about it a little they said. Why dont i ever talk about it a little. ITs always SO MUCH”
