#button speaks

[confessionblog]

I wish I was allowed to kill myself. I wish that whenever i looked up methods, it would give me something instead of a hotline. I've called the hotlines before. They told me to journal. I wish the people who let me talk about it weren't only the ones who were paid to do so. I wish talking about it to those people didn't get me put in a room for dsys with nothing but my own thoughts. I wish assisted suicide was legal in hospitals. I wish strangers wouldn't tell me "i care about you, don't do it, there's so much more in life" about a half hour before forgetting i exist entirely. I wish people initiated conversations with me. I wish my brain wasn't broken. I wish I wasn't a failure. I wish my mom loved me more than weed and cigarettes. I wish people listened to me when I was a kid. I wish I hadn't called anyone in the middle of my attempt last year. One year exactly next month. I wish I owned my own body. I wish I could experience intimacy with another person without feeling like every touch is an assault on my ravaged flesh. I wish I was more human. I wish I wasn't human at all. I wish I was somewhere better. I wish I was hanging from a tree in the park nearby.

[fantrollology]

❄️um whats button doin

"uh, staying hive... like every sweep."

"...big events like this aren't really my thing."

[theheroofskill]

I got my custom todays from @panda-bears-pacis!! It’s sooooooooooooooo perfect! <3 My plushie Shadzys love it! And it came with so much fun stuffs!

[stelladreamsofstarlight]

Had a great time on Overwatch a few days ago. My friends and I got the other players to choose the same hero- with one zenyatta healer. Eventually we were all in a group and we just kept going, changing which hero was the focus each round. (I was the one reaper surrounded by soldier76 haha) @prinnyoverlordally is the zenyatta @scarlette-skies was in on it too

[confessionblog]

I’m not sure how to process Pope Francis’s death. While his moves were small, they were enough to give the Church a (tiny) push in the direction of queer inclusivity and cross-cultural communication. Which was enough for many in the Church (including me for a while) to consider him a radical progressive. And it was enough for me to think he could change the Church for the better.

I’m mostly scared that whoever his successor will be will take a hard-right turn and move things backward. I’ve been seeing an increasingly loud far-right trend in both Catholic clergy and Catholic laypeople, which eventually got bad enough for me to leave. So I wouldn’t be surprised if a far-right cardinal becomes the next Pope.

I shouldn’t be scared, because it won’t affect my life, but I guess I am because my relatively liberal but very devout Catholic parents could lose their main source of community due to the Church giving bigoted voices an increasingly large platform. And it would really hurt for me to look my parents in the eyes and say “I told you so”.

As someone who was never raised religious, I've still felt some of the ripples of Pope Francis' action. The upsetting trend you mentioned is all too prevalent, with one step forward and a backflip down the stairs at every turn.

This ask is how I'm finding out about it.

[confessionblog]

this blog was made so people could anonymously confess just about anything. I was looking for a blog where I could just say what was on my chest without hurting those around me, and I couldn't find any. those I did find were long since deactivated.

I (mostly) don't judge, within reason of course.

the only rule is to make sure you remain anonymous.

-mod button

[confessionblog]

I’m writing a book right now, and I can’t come up with ideas for filler on my own, it usually pops up in my head on my own when I’m talking to people in the moment, but I feel annoying when I bring it up. So I explained the plot to an ai and got some filler scene ideas, but now I feel physically ill and disgusted with myself over it and I don’t know how to even keep writing it even though it’s been my passion for years. I feel terrible and like there’s no way back from this

I would just try to not use it again, scrap what the ai came up with, and maybe go on a writer's discord server or a group somewhere else online so you can have a person to talk about your writing with. Maybe you can trade works and beta read for each other!

[confessionblog]

tw: suicide mention

I’m scared that my best friend just killed himself. He’s struggled with his mental health for a long time and he’s tried to hang himself before. It’s been 20 minutes and he hasn’t answered any of my texts. Will send another anonymous confession once I have confirmation.

Answering this having recieved the update that he's alive.

I'm happy he's safe, it's been a minute since this was submitted- I answered asks from most recent to oldest. Stay close to each other. We all need people. It's been a hard year.