#buzzing bee thoughts

[beeslost]

devastating news. dr two brains found dead on floor with snapped neck after he pulls this move to get a high five

[inkedtae]

okay please don’t hate me but i think i’m in a writing slump or something! i have barely written a thing for the next rotten chapter 😭 like i have the whole thing planned in my head but words are hard sometimes and all this to say i am pushing back the posting schedule one week to give myself time to get it together and write something ! i’m really sorry 🥺💗

[beeslost]

i just watched the shorts and i am hopelessly obsessed with this image of chuck. HES SO CUTE. UGHHHHH STOP BEING CUTE RIGHT NOW OH MY GOD. HE MAKES ME SICK. GGVRRARATTAGGH

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ᥫ᭡bee's tumblr wrapped (2024)ᥫ᭡

it took me embarrassingly long to make this banner.... anyway a special thanks to dia ( @yoonia ) for tagging me to do this ! i didn't do much writing this year but i wanna do this so imma do it lol

this year kinda fucked me sideways multiple times. it took months of therapy and lots of courage to sit myself down and reconnect with not only my writing, but myself. i have been feeling so lost but diving back into passions like writing has given me the confidence i needed to find my direction again. i still have no idea where i am supposed to be or what i am meant to do. but, right now, it feels like at least i know which way i am going, and that's forward.

thank you so much to everyone who has continued to read, comment, reblog, like, and interact with me and my work. i don't think i deserve any of it and it's incredibly surreal that i still got asks about my fics and series. i can't believe that a lot of these fics were not only read once, but twice. like that's fucking insane to me. so thank you so much. and thank you to everyone behind the scene who has supported me from banners to reading things over. jen ( @anobodyslove ) is the most wonderful, sweet, beautiful person i have ever had the pleasure of connecting with. from late night editing to long walks talking about every and any thing, you are my favourite human and i love you!

okay, okay, enough sappiness!! let's dive in!

₊˚✧ OVERALL STATS ✧˚₊‧

: ̗̀➛ fics published: 9 : ̗̀➛ series completed: 1 : ̗̀➛ series ongoing: 4 : ̗̀➛ words written: 122,258 : ̗̀➛ fics to be published: 24 (i don't wanna talk about it...)

‎‧₊˚✧ FIRST FIC OF 2024 | published : february 17 ✧˚₊‧

: ̗̀➛ xi. rotten angelcake ⇾ kth. | s2l, ceo au, sugar daddy au | 16.5k

retrospection: ahh my first attempt at returning to tumblr after a long unplanned hiatus. if you were ever curious on what kind of headspace i was in, this fic is the perfect explanation. the rotten angelcake series has been my form of self-indulgence and journaling since the very first chapter. however, i completely threw myself into this chapter of the series. all my anger, frustration, regret, confusion, sadness was poured into this chapter. it's so emotionally charged and personal, i almost didn't post it. i haven't even looked at it again before this moment and that was just to retrieve the link lol it's just carrying a very dark part of my life that i have been trying to pull myself out of. but, while it does hold so much for me, i do not regret writing or publishing it. it's all part of the self-healing process ૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡

‎‧₊˚✧ LONGEST FIC OF 2024 | published : october 3 ✧˚₊‧

: ̗̀➛ the underground ⇾ bgc. | strangers to lovers, boxer au, dark themes | 29.1 k |

retrospection: oof this fic! so i wrote this for channie's b-day and one of my favourite chantober rituals, especially for his b-day, is to write the most unhinged, dark story. i have never been able to get the idea of boxer, mafia boss!chan ruining me in front of his friends out of my head, so i wrote about it. i lowkey wish i could make it a series or add an epilogue but i vowed to finish my ongoing series first before starting another one. it's just such a fun fic with a lot of grittiness. i don't think the nearly 30k words was enough either tbh but it will have to do for now ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

‎‧₊˚✧ PERSONAL FAVOURITE FIC OF 2024 | published : october 17 ✧˚₊‧

: ̗̀➛ between roar and whisper ⇾ bgc. | hogwarts au, pwp, e2l | 9.4k |

retrospection: this was probably the easiest to write because there was very little worldbuilding required and i got to focus on the sexual tension between these two "enemies". it was short, sweet, to the point, and the smut was so fucking hot—ugh! i need slytherin!chan to make me cockdumb too! i don't think i will ever be over this fic and i kinda wanna write an epilogue for it too but i will stop myself because i am already overcommitted ˚ 𝜗𝜚˚⋆｡☆

‎‧₊˚✧ LAST FIC OF 2024 | published : december 31 ✧˚₊‧

: ̗̀➛ marked by krampus ⇾ kth. | twisted christmas au, monster kink, s2l | 11.1k |

retrospection: okay i just finished this fic yesterday so i don't know how much real introspection i can truly muster but i will do my best. as the last fic of taecember, as well as the year, i decided to indulge in my very big, very embarrassing monster kink. i was kind of focused on that which meant that the worldbuilding for this fic was not my best. i could have done better...anyway! this may be the final fic for 2024 but it will not be the final monster au i write ᡣ • . • 𐭩 ♡

‎‧₊˚✧ HONOURABLE MENTION | published : november 1 ✧˚₊‧

: ̗̀➛ elixir of the damned ⇾ bgc. | vampire au, s2l | 19.5k |

retrospection: this fic was written as the last fic of chantober, but it had been in my drafts for about two years. now i obviously do not know bang chan in real life, but he seems to wear his heart on his sleeve and is very forthcoming about his struggles on camera. so this fic was heavily inspired but the sentiments of sadness and wistfulness, about missing his family in australia. i remembered this v-live where he was back home and he was doing his chan's room (which omg i miss so much) in his old room. and the room had become his little brothers. and i just couldn't stop thinking about what that must feel like. just imagine walking back into a familiar room and it looks the same, like the layout is exactly how you left it, but all the stuff in there does not belong to you. how uncanny must that have felt? to tiptoe around a room that was once yours? idk it just inspired his character in this fic and i hope that i was able to capture that well enough ૮₍´˶• . • ⑅ ₎ა

‧₊˚✧ SPECIAL EVENTS OF 2024 | published : november 1 ✧˚₊‧

: ̗̀➛ chantober 2024 & taecember 2024

retrospection: god, i love bias months so much—even though they wreck me by the end. being able to fully express my love and devotion to my biases just makes me feel so full and happy. it's like even if my day might be shitty, it's okay because i have something to work towards and look forward to. i also have the chance to celebrate both chan, and taehyung with you, which is always so exciting and fun! i literally cannot wait to do it all over again in 2025 ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

‧₊˚✧ TOP TRACKS OF 2024 ✧˚₊‧

𐙚 hurt — newjeans 𐙚 espresso — sabrina carpenter 𐙚 i like it — stray kids 𐙚 red lights (bang chan, hyunjin) — stray kids 𐙚 venus fly trap — marina 𐙚 work — ateez 𐙚 perfect night — le sserafim 𐙚 chk chk boom — stray kids 𐙚 mon amour — gemini 𐙚 na — hwasa

‧₊˚✧ GOALS FOR 2025 ✧˚₊‧

𐙚 stick to my posting schedule !! (writing two fics a month) 𐙚 properly plan ahead for bias months (i'm literally the worst at this) 𐙚 finish the rotten angelcake series 𐙚 breathe... (sometimes i forget that i just need to take a minute and breathe)

many thanks again to dia for tagging me, this was really fun ♡︎ i wanna tag jen ( @anobodyslove ) , dee (@awrkives ) , ghost ( @ghxstwrites ) , lixie ( @bunnliix ) , minerva ( @yourlocaljonghoe ) , and stardust ( @skzdust ). there's no pressure to do this !!

♡¸.•' happy new year lovelies '•.¸♡

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what would you like to see this taecember?

the next bias month is right around the corner. i'm so excited to be celebrating taehyung with you soon. i need some help deciding what to post for the month though. keep in mind that i will be posting once a week (four fics in total). there will definitely chapters of rotten angelcake posted and maybe a chapter of only you, but do you also want some one-shots sprinkled into the month as well? lemme know in the poll below 💕

so what's on the roster?

just give me everything rotten! (rac chapters only)

let's make it a series month (rac and only you chapters)

a little bit of everything (oneshots + series chapters)

Voting ended onNov 6, 2024

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do you prefer to read my fics on AO3 or tumblr?

AO3

tumblr

i don’t care, just gimme the smut

Voting ended onOct 12, 2024

so i am thinking about editing some of my fic posts to include the entire fic in the tumblr post instead of redirecting you to ao3. i’m on the fence so i need your help. please let me know what you prefer. 💕

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announcement ✨

Hello, my loves! I hope the new year is treating you well so far! I am finally back to writing and feeling much better! Thank you to everyone who was so supportive and checking in on me during my impromptu hiatus. 

As I am sure you have noticed, lately there has been a shift among fellow smut writers on this site. Due to the current unfortunate circumstance of heavy censorship on here, I have decided that I will be moving to AO3.I want to make it clear that I am NOT leaving tumblr. My blog will still be up and frequently visited. I will be here to reblog, reply, answer all asks and interact with you. As far as fics go, however, I will only be posting the banner and the first few paragraphs. The “keep reading” link will simply direct you to AO3 where the entire fic will be posted. I already moved all my other fics on there and it’s all set for new content. Besides this, everything else will stay the same. 

Again, I want to repeat that I will NOT be leaving tumblr. 

I can’t wait to share more fics and ideas with you this year as well. Thank you, lovelies~ 🥺💕

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Let's Talk About It

It has been constantly brought to my attention that there is another bitter, pitiful person on the internet with no life and too much time on their hands. They like to go by 'chaibts,' but I don't think irrelevance deserves to be named. That is one of many reasons why I did not want to discuss it, but I am tired of hearing about it in my inbox and having to trash yet another ask. So, let's talk about it.

Since I was first informed about its presence, I have not visited that blog. I have not thought about or remembered it until someone else points it out to me again. I find the blog meaningless, stupid and extremely embarrassing. Every time I've tried to explain the concept of a bts smut writer hate blog to someone unfamiliar with it, all I've received was confusion and laughter. I cannot even blame them because that is always my reaction too when I hear that another one surfaced. I still don't understand how someone can hide behind the guise of 'awareness' and 'justice' while being ruthlessly judgemental and abusive. I don't even want to understand it, to be honest. They, and every other anon on there, are just another sad person on the internet too consumed by their own self-loathing to deal with their own issues. I care very little for pathetic and misguided intentions.

This fad of hate will soon end as it always does and this blog will become a murky memory all over again. Meanwhile, these writers will stay, whether under the same name or not, you will end up consuming and praising their efforts all over again. The mob mentality is too easily malleable. One day it is a poc writer, the next it is dark fic writer. They do not care about 'justice' or 'morals.' They just want to feel something and will break down anyone they can to do so.

So, what can you do? Well, besides reporting them, nothing. Do not engage with this blog's behaviour. If you are worried about the writers or creators under attack, you can send them some kind words of reassurance and support. Lift them up and let them know that you care, that they are appreciated. Giving this blog yet another ounce of attention will only fuel them. (Which is also why I refrained from saying anything at all at first). They already have to latch onto other content creators to gain some sort of traction. Soon, they will run of of 'shocking' things to say and be the broken record they know they are.

To the content creators who have been mentioned and attacked, I'm sorry you have to experience this. These sad people are not as powerful as they would like you to think. Please remember they cannot reach you past this screen. They are boasting behind a mask because they know they would not say any of this to your face if they were to see you. Let them be sad and petty in their dark little corner of this shitty site. Most importantly, do what makes you happy 💕