a starter for @ofmontagues
Panic. That’s what Sebastian Lavellan felt in this moment. Not to mention confusion, distress and the overwhelming urge to just cry. He’d been coming to this club for a couple of weeks now on and off, a place specifically designed for people exploring the BDSM lifestyle and finding their footing in it. He hadn’t tried any scenes in all that time, trying to just observe and maybe talk to a few people until he was ready and willing to find someone to try things with. Unfortunately his eventual choice had been a bad one, feeling perhaps a little too needy and on the edge of a submissive headspace had made him agree to the scene with a total stranger that he might have otherwise said no to.
Which is how he found himself on the floor, kneeling in the main floor of the club with a rough pair of fingers in his hair, tugging violently enough to make him yell as he head condescending, vulgar words being taunted at him by the nameless Dominant above him. This didn’t feel right, it was supposed to feel good wasn’t it? But it didn’t, every harsh tug and cruel word just made Sebastian feel worse and worse, his head spinning into a completely different kind of headspace as the young man was completely ill equipped to handle this. No disucssed limits, safe words or easing into anything and the longer it went on the worse the panic got and the more helpless he felt. Tears welling up in his eyes, his body shaking and wanting to say something, anything to get this man to stop but it was just getting worse and worse and he felt more and more helpless. But it wasn’t until he felt that large hand slap his cheek and felt the sting against his skin that the first tear fell and a broken sob passed his lips as Sebastian felt his entire world spin.










